Friday, January 24, 2014
My 3rd year anniversary of maintaining came and passed quietly and happily. The mountainous goals I set out for at the start of everything nearly four years ago have evened out into rolling hills of ups and down, proving challenging at times but manageable.
My biggest fear used to be gaining back any amount of weight. It was a deathly fear, tantamount to failure, indicative of an inability to remain healthy, of a need to backslide into obesity. My measures of success have relaxed since then. The actual success I find is over time being able to maintain a healthy weight range on an intuitive level day to day. When I do gain, I have the tools and knowhow to correct the issue accordingly, as I am practicing currently by tracking my food and increasing my exercise.
I still face difficulties. I continue to deal with a serious food addiction, I struggle reacting to stresses or understanding how much is too much work for me to take on, and I still have trouble maintaining a consistent exercise routine. But the largest hardships of my weight are now behind me, completed during the journey it took to burn off the excess, to learn everything about health, fitness, nutrition, and life that I needed to keep it off on an intuitive level, and the acceptance and love to sustain continued self care as a priority. With it gone, it is so much easier to control and handle a permanently changed lifestyle. It is the light at the end of the tunnel and the start of the larger journey of a healthy and happy life, I just had to take the time to realize I was already living it.
Thank you for joining me during these travels, we are awesome.