Thursday, January 23, 2014

I really had a hard time getting up this morning. I woke around 9:30 am but didn't crawl out for an additional hour. Depression is a sure fire way of not getting things done and that's an excuse. I just cannot seem to be able to get motivated to do laundry or dishes or exercise.

In the early afternoon, I had gone for a short walk. It was so cold out I thought my hands and legs would freeze! My face was so cold.

Afterwards, I went to my friend's house and we played a few games of cribbage and then watched television. She isn't feeling very good - she has strep throat and the doctor doesn't like handing out medication.

As I returned home, it was snowing so bad that I could hardly see the road in front of me. The road was slippery so I took my time coming home.

My left heel still hurts but not as bad. I think I'll have to quit eating apples and bananas and oranges etc for awhile. At least I only get flare ups from gout a few times a year.

I'm really making headway on drinking water. I'm forcing only 2 glasses of water now instead of all eight. I'm even trying to drink more once I have this down pat. One step at a time.

I guess I should be lucky. I hit half century and not sure why. I guess God has more for me to do.

My psychiatrist asked me if I could remember the last time I was truly happy. I honestly do not remember. Wedding? No, I was dreading it. I still don't remember.

I want to change but not sure how. I want to join a pool but am afraid to. Same goes for a gym or playing cards. Or volleyball. I want to meet new people but am afraid. I want to have a mate but haven't ever known how.

One day, I hope to become physically fit and happy.

Life goes on and I will keep striving for this lifestyle change I have begun.
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  • 68ANNE
    Depression isn't an excuse. It has emotional and physical symptoms. You are trying. . . and succeeding more often than not. Congrats on how well you've done so far
    1514 days ago
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