Yesterday was kinda bad, today was kinda worse. I woke up feeling irritable and crummy, and that's never good. Fortunately I did decent with a choice for breakfast, veggie burger. I didn't have any fruit cause I was out of fruit, but I ate a Grillers Prime veggie burger which made up the calorie difference, for sure.
Then I sat here and was grumpy for a few minutes, then decided to nap. I napped for like an hour, then woke up obsessed with the thought of Chinese food. I sat here going back and forth in my mind about it. Yes no, yes no... finally I decided yes. I was craving it and I knew I would obsess about it until I ate it. I woke dh up so we could go, and he gave me a sideways look for saying I wanted Chinese, but he didn't say anything except "Are you sure?" I was... sort of sure. Fortunately the veggie burger for breakfast had filled me up more than I thought. I only ate one plate, and not an especially large plate at that. And I had the good sense to stop before misery set in, no matter how much I wanted to keep eating. I hate when I feel like that... the desire to just eat and eat, whether I'm hungry or not. I should probably mention that in therapy, I'm sure there's something to be uncovered about that drive.
Anyway, after the Chinese, my mood did improve a little. That's something else I should probably mention in therapy. Feeling better after consuming unhealthy food is setting a bad precedent. Or, more accurately, following a bad precedent I set as a child. I did feel better, though, and I figured I'd take the good mood and run with it, since I had a lot of things to do today. First up was getting my hair cut. Dh told me he really likes it, and that my "hair goes with my glasses." He says that's a compliment, I hope it is!
Ignore the fact I'm already in my big sleepy shirt and just look at the hair. lol I'm SO glad to finally have it cut. It feels so much better. I got about 4" whacked off, so I feel kind of bald now, but it's nice to not feel like I'm being smothered by hair!
Next on the list was grocery shopping. B-o-r-i-n-g! Absolutely nothing exciting to report at the grocery stores this week. Unless you count discovering that tofu is considerably cheaper than meat. That's a mental note I'm going to make use of. Otherwise it was just another day at the grocery store.
I've managed to not go insane with eating this evening. I treated lunch as lunch, instead of an excuse to eat like a piggy all night. I had another veggie burger for dinner. Snack was blueberries and cottage cheese and toast with peanut butter. I'm definitely over on calories today, but I'm not at all upset with myself tonight. I mean, it kinda sucks that i ran to food to soothe my bad mood... but for doing that, I did it as well as I could have. I didn't stuff myself and I didn't continue eating crap for the rest of the day. So even though I know I'm over, I'm a-okay with that. Days like today will happen. I will not swear off Chinese for the rest of my life. The trick is to pick up and move on afterwards, and I have done that.
The only other remarkable thing about today? BRRR!!!!!! The windchill was like -12 when we were out getting groceries and I thought I was going to freeze solid walking between the stores and the car. OMG. I'm sitting here now under 2 blankets and I think I'm finally starting to warm up. This has been the coldest winter we have had since I have lived in Ohio and I don't like it one little bit. Makes me wanna hide in the house and not poke my nose out til July!
But, poke my nose out I will. Tomorrow is back to the community center to workout. It's going to be a balmy 18 degrees, so I'm not gonna be happy about going out, but I'll be so happy after my workout that it will totally be worth it. I know this, and I will remind myself of this when I wanna stay inside under a blanket. It's cardio and strength training day tomorrow. Hoping for another workout as good as Monday's.
And now it's time to go curl up on the futon with dh and get under a big blanket and hide from the cold. Hope everyone has had a warm, safe, dry Thursday!