Thursday, January 23, 2014
I feel better today, more... empty. Yea empty is a good word for it. The scale this morning already went down since yesterday and that makes me extremely happy. After dinner I got caught up in watch My 600 LB Life for a few hours. It comes on TLC. Oh man. Now that is probably the saddest thing I've ever seen. The first show was about a really pathetic woman who had no real plans to change and she kept blaming the doctor and calling the nutritionist a moron. Most likely she will die soon.
Well it got me thinking about how truly emotional this journey is and how after I get to my new goal weight, will I have another depression like I just did? I certainly don't want to go back to that place anytime soon.. or ever. I'm most likely going to start seeing a regular therapist. I'll call my insurance at lunch and see if they cover any of the session fee. It's difficult right now because the bonus I was counting on didn't come through, I had to spend over $500 for my new glasses, the $700 something citizenship fee coming up, my mom borrowing money, insurances and car note, and my sad little vacation plans.
What's my sanity worth, I wonder?
54 Days Left.