Thursday, January 23, 2014
Today I notice that I felt off again. I got diagnosed with depression in November 2010 and anxiety in the summer of 2009. I was given a prescription for Zoloft for the depression which I refused to take and Xanax. I only took the Xanax for a couple of months because I found out I was pregnant with my Gabriel (who is now 2). I haven't been back to the dr to discuss my depression.
I'm thinking that I might need to go. Today, I have felt sad, lonely, like I want to cry nonstop, grumpy, I don't like myself, attacked about the tiniest little thing...just off.
So, I decided to look up the symptoms for bipolar disorder since my family members and I suspect that my mom may be bipolar. I have 99% of the symptoms of being bipolar with depression...so I am thinking that I need to go speak to my dr so I can get this taken care of. I need to be the best mom that I can be and I can't do that if I am not taking care of myself...I know this. Why is it so hard for me to do??? UGH!