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About Me - and other thoughts

Wednesday, January 22, 2014

What? Two blogs in one day. I know, right. Just thought I'd join in the About Me fun - havent done one in a while and I have new Spark Friends since the last time :)

A is for Age: 30 - I'll be 31 next month *sigh*

B is for Booze: I like cabernet wine. I also like wheat beers but since I have to avoid gluten, no more wheat beers for me. I like hard cider, too. And strawberry daiquiris. Actually, though, I rarely drink.

C is for Car: 2012 Jeep Compass - I'm not a huge fan of SUVs, but I like it because it drives well in the Colorado weather. When I move away, I am getting a new car though, and it will be a car, not an SUV!

D is for Dad's name: Jim

E is for Ego: Eh not so much. I am confident in my job, but right now feeling less confident in myself, personally.

F is for Favorite song or music: I dont think I have much of a favorite. I really only listen to music when driving or when running and most of the time I dont pay attention to whats playing. I like popular music - not so much big on the country.

G is for Goof off thing to do: I feel lame. I dont think I goof off much. I guess just dancing around my house to loud music occassionally. Mostly I try to relax.

H is for Hometown: Sayreville, NJ - it's also the hometown of Bon Jovi - not that I've ever met him, but its cool to say that he went to my high school and all.

I is for IQ: I would LOVE to take an IQ test. How does one make this happen?

J is for Jam or Jelly you like: I dont like jam or jelly. It's a texture thing.

K is for Kids: my dog is like my child. She's a 2.5 year old Morkie (maltese yorkie mix)

L is for Living arrangement: I own my house and pay a mortgage. I love having my own house; I just wish it was a different location - like back east where I'm originally from. I feel like after owning a house, it will be hard to be a renter again, so I am hoping I will be able to sell my house when it's time to move next year.

M is for Mom's name: Georgeanne

N is for Name of best friend: I dont think I really have a best friend right now. I have close friends - Melissa is probably my closest, and then my friend Jen.

O is for Observations: I'm very observant of my surroundings and I have an amazing memory, which is good and bad. My current observations are that I am clearly procrastinating from doing work - its avoidance definitely.

P is for Phobias: I have a fear of knives. When I was a teenager, I was stalked and received death threats which graphically told me that I would be stabbed to death. For the longest time I would not even hold knives. I can hold them and use them now, but I do twinge when I see someone else holding one, like when cooking. I also have a fear of spending my life alone. It's one of the fears I've had since I was little. I like my alone time, but the idea of being alone forever is terrifying and saddening.

Q is for Quote you like: "In a world where you can be anything, be yourself." - unknown; "I cant go back to yesterday because I was a different person then." - Lewis Carroll (from Alice in Wonderland)

R is for Relationship: recently single :/

S is for Siblings: an older half sister that I dont have any relationship with, and a younger brother that I am very close with

T is for Talents: I think I'm very talented :) I run, sew, dance, cross-stitch, scrapbook, bake, cook.

U is for Unique trait: I have quirky interests that set me apart from other women my age.

V is for vegetable you love: red bell peppers

W is for Worst traits: I worry constantly about something - anything.

X- is for X-rays you've had: My knees, ankles, arms, wrists, nose. Seriously, I feel like if it could be x-rayed, it's probably been x-rayed!

Y is for Yummy food you make: cupcakes are my favorite, of course :)

Z is for Zodiac sign: Aquarious


Well, that was fun. Maybe you learned something new about me. I'm still having a rough time today. I'm overly emotional about my life - that is just the consequence of yesterday, and still dealing with the breakup. Gosh, I feel like I must read like a broken record. But you guys know I'm not going to be totally fine after 3.5 weeks. 2 years with someone is a long time. I'm just trying to go through the process honestly. *sigh*

I'm avoiding work. Im tired of sadness this week. And all of my phone calls I need to make are going to be emotional for the people I call. I just dont want to hear anymore crying today. I seriously cannot wait to go home and cuddle up with my dog.

Anyone have any book reading suggestions, in which the main character is a single female in her thirties? I feel like I need some hope that my life isnt completely falling apart.
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    Hi Raine,
    31 is a wonderful age! You have time to take steps to a journey of a healthier lifestyle. Your a Pawesome emoticon person. We miss you at the Spirited Underdawgs.

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    1000 days ago
    Books to read that will make you laugh, Janet Evanovich about Stephanie Plum:-)
    1004 days ago
    I was single until I married at 34. To a man that was 64.

    That was 27 years ago and now he is 92 to my 62 and we're still happily married.

    I never dated much but I worked in a factory where I was surrounded by 350 women who mostly complained about their marriages and families.

    Give yourself time - when the right one comes along, you will be available!

    Sorry you're down - I can relate - but better days are coming.
    1005 days ago
    31 is far from old! Try being in your 60's and time goes by so fast. I was only 40 a couple of weeks ago - or so it seems.
    1005 days ago
    Also my first visit to your blog, and it's nice to get to know a fellow DAWG teammate! It sounds like you're going through a bit of a patch where you need to lean on others, and blogging is a great 1st step. I can relate... I worked 12 years as a paramedic, 5 of those in Jerusalem picking up after suicide bombings... even having to put all emotions aside and treating the bombers themselves. I've been through a husband already (after being with him for 10 years), a few years of single-mommy-hood... I'm only 2 years older than you. My dog is still my best friend and most reliable pup in my life. Life does rebuild and go on, I have a happy continuation to my saga with wonderful new people in my life. Just keep your head up and realize it's only a phase, you sound like a fantastic person, and you'll come through this in just a matter of time. Take care, and keep running! xo
    1006 days ago
    31 is not old. My brother who is 17 years older than me recently told me he plans to live to be 100 and still annoying his "baby" sister! I love to read mystery novels and I like the series about Stephanie Plum (though I am not sure if novels about a bounty hunter are good recommendations for a lawyer !) She is in her 30's and it is fabulous escapist reading and I would say good for someone who has recently had a breakup,Stephanie Plum is a fictional character and the protagonist in a series of novels written by Janet Evanovich. She is a spunky combination of Nancy Drew and Dirty Harry, and although a female bounty hunter is the opposite of Domino Harvey. She is described by the author as "incredibly average and yet heroic if necessary."

    1006 days ago
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    Blessings upon you during this time and yes 31 is not old!
    1006 days ago
    Fun stuff.
    31 is not old!!
    I'm sorry it's been such a rough time recently. It will get better.
    1006 days ago
    It's my first visit to your blog and you sound like a very interesting person. I'm sorry about your recent break up and the awful day in court. It sucks when you have to see or hear evidence of the real monsters of the world (I see some of that working ambulance...) I'm glad you're there to help the survivors.
    I don't know a book with a 30 something single female character, but personally, the book Self-Reliance the wisdom of Ralph Waldo Emerson... written by Richard Whelan was a book I found very inspiring while single and deployed. I hope things get better and that you check the book out!
    1006 days ago
    I love the getting to know you things! Such a fun way to learn new things about people!

    Break ups suck and you are allowed to take the time you need to grieve! Don't feel bad about it and let it out when you need to. Keeping it in will not help you at all!
    1006 days ago
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