Wednesday, January 22, 2014
I regained a bunch of weight. As in right-back-to-square-one a lot of weight. The difference between the last time I weighed this much and now is that this time I've ACCEPTED it. I am where I am, and that's all there is to it. I'm not constantly fighting with myself. Once I decided to stop abusing my body by binging on junk food, I feel so much better. I even lost 3 pounds this week.
I was on a Mental Toughness kick for a little while last year. While listening to what Steve Siebold had to say DID help me accept responsibility for my choices, the almost drill-sargeant-like state of mind got old very quickly. While I'm not uber hard on myself these days, I'm not coddling myself either. One of the most impactful quotes I've heard is "Don't mistake kindness for weakness". So I'm kind to myself, but with better boundaries.
I've also realized that it's no one else's business what I eat and how much of it. It actually feels GOOD to say no and not justify myself to death. And I'm treating my calorie range like a game. I'm eating more varied and healthy meals, without breaking the bank or having to cook a new recipe every night. Who has time for that?
So for what feels like the umpteenth time, I'm starting over. Except this time I feel more peaceful than excited at the starting line. Excitement can only carry you so far. The trick is to keep going. "Good things are coming down the road. Just don't stop walking."