Wednesday, January 22, 2014
Thank you to everyone who responded to my post last night when I was feeling frustrated and angry with myself. It helps to know that others have struggled with the same issues. The advice is helpful, also; especially to hang in here with SparkPeople and not give up on this goal for myself. What is particularly frustrating for me is that the difficulty I'm having sticking to my plan for even a day. Day after day for the past 6 months I've either eaten over points and/or had sweets. I really pondered my situation last night (both before and after blogging.) In the past I've kind of pooh-poohed the idea of being addicted to sugar or carbohydrates. But I realize that these are exactly the foods that trip me up. When I'm tired, frustrated, happy, sad, etc., etc., etc., I think of junk food. What's with that? I realized last night that I'm thinking like an addict. For example, the idea of NEVER having mashed potatoes again, or chocolate cake or mocha ice cream SCARES me! Really?!!! They're just foods, but I seem to have an emotional--even visceral attachment to them. So do I treat myself like an addict? Should I aim for abstinence from certain 'trigger' foods or put myself through one of the popular cleanses (Even the thought of that makes me feel anxious)? This seems counter to SparkPeople's philosophy of moderation in eating. I would love feedback on this question.