Sunday, January 19, 2014
I have spent a lifetime of being overweight with periods of being thin. I would carefully weed pictures of me out of the family celebrations as much as possible. Frankly I disliked looking at myself being overweight and I was embarrassed and sad to look at them.
Now I have reached my goal and have maintained it for over two years.
My husband decided to compile all of the old family videos of our kids into an epic DVD. He proudly showed me his results. While I loved seeing my children as babies, toddles, children,
I zoomed in on shots of me. With astounding accuracy I recognized the dark clothes bought to hide weight gain, the skirts worn in the summer as I could not wear shorts comfortably. I watched the weight gain from the birth of my twins to through the birth of my daughter and third son. I had four children under the age of 5.
Here is my NSV. I looked at myself and did not feel the urge to cry like I have in the past. In fact I thought, " That is who I was then. I am not that person now." I felt strong and resolved.
So I was able to comfortably and positively watch my old overweight self. I did notice that despite my weight problem, I was very happy raising my children and loved being around them.
I am not going to have my husband edit out my most overweight shots. I accept this part of my life. I celebrate my present life of being at goal weight and maybe I will get my husband to make a current DVD to update the new me!