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#RockYourResolution ~ Day 18

Saturday, January 18, 2014

Wow, it has been 5 days since my last blog. I told myself I would try to blog every day this month...but that is harder than it seems! My firs thought is that I would blog every day until I reached my goal weight, but I don't think that is even possible for me. But I will try to post a couple days a week this year, even after I reach my goal. I think that is doable.

This is the first week that I have been back to school also, so it is much, much harder than when I'm on break. I know that I am definitely a stress eater, and I am feeling the stress of work creeping up on me again. Although I know that I shouldn't get stressed about a job that I am perfectly capable of doing and a job I love. The fact that I don't get my first paycheck until the end of this month is hard, because we are living off our pantry storage until probably Feb 15th. It's money. That's the main reason I just stress and stress and worry. But it's hard not to stress and worry over money when I want to lose weight and we can afford much food. I've been hand-making bread and tortillas and biscuits, but we are all out of protein (besides milk and eggs which I just bought yesterday) and all we have left fruit and vegetable-wise is some frozen spinach and a small bag of peppers. So, I know I can get creative, but it takes a lot of work to figure out how to make some healthy meals without it always being an omelet, lol. And to combine that with working in the CTX 4 days a week, teaching on 2 and working the cafe 2 days, plus trying to fit in exercise and set up classes and find interesting, intriguing lessons for my students...
And waiting is hard. Waiting to hear about my master's application, waiting for Kurt to get a job, waiting for the move that's coming up, waiting for money, waiting for tax returns, waiting, waiting, waiting... That is something that I know I need to work on. Not living for the future, but living more for today. It's not about the destination, but about the journey. I think if I try to focus on that, I can find more peace with my time management. I think that procrastinating the work that I really need to get done is the biggest problem, so right after this I will start working on my calendar for the semester and try to get my classes for this week set out. Then, I've got Zumba at 10, and I want to take Jack for a walk before work at 4:30. Maybe I need to start making lists for myself again. Bleh. Scheduling in time for my own class work.

Anyway, I'm off to do work. Haha...
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    You've certainly got a lot on your plate. I hope one day very soon, you'll be financially comfortable and then someday you will laugh with the kids about all the creative omelets you used to eat.

    Keep taking care of yourself!
    1127 days ago
    it is difficult to blog everyday! I commend those who can do it. I hope to at least get online and update my status once a week lol. emoticon
    1127 days ago
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