Saturday, January 18, 2014
Well it's finally happened.
After losing 20+ lbs about a year & a half ago, I've gained nearly all of it back.
I could wallow in self pity & beat myself up...but that's not going to change anything. So here's to a fresh start.
A year and a half ago I was untouchable. So full of confidence & will power. I felt so strong & liberated. Now I hide & shy away from group activities, shopping, & putting myself out there. I am unhappy & ready to love myself again.
It wasn't just being 124lbs...I had strength, muscle tone, abs. I felt sexy and confident. Cooking and eating healthy foods for fuel was a new notion. I felt like I could go anywhere, wear anything, and be myself. Be comfortable. And I miss that. I want it back.
I know my negativity is hurting me and those close to me. This is not how I want to live.
So what better time than now for a new beginning.