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Saturday, January 18, 2014

Well it's finally happened.

After losing 20+ lbs about a year & a half ago, I've gained nearly all of it back.

I could wallow in self pity & beat myself up...but that's not going to change anything. So here's to a fresh start.

A year and a half ago I was untouchable. So full of confidence & will power. I felt so strong & liberated. Now I hide & shy away from group activities, shopping, & putting myself out there. I am unhappy & ready to love myself again.

It wasn't just being 124lbs...I had strength, muscle tone, abs. I felt sexy and confident. Cooking and eating healthy foods for fuel was a new notion. I felt like I could go anywhere, wear anything, and be myself. Be comfortable. And I miss that. I want it back.

I know my negativity is hurting me and those close to me. This is not how I want to live.

So what better time than now for a new beginning.

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    Ups and downs are part of the journey. Make a plan, but don't give in to the guilt/shame spiral when things take a detour. We're in this together. Stay positive.
    1426 days ago
  • --DEBY--

    well.... at least now you have learned about yourself... what doesnt feel right... and start anew again... I have teeter tottered so much.... up/down... I am really focused on this being my last bout on the road to a Healthier me...

    I am wishing you much success and all the best...

    Welcome to New Beginnings team... I just re ignited it...
    looking forward to sharing with you

    BLESSings allways ~Deby
    1428 days ago
    The beauty of all of this is that we always (if needed) can renew and redo our commitment to a healthier life. You can do this!!

    1428 days ago
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