"A lot of times, we forget to nurture other parts of our lives while focusing on another...we can only fit so many things in, and balance is a hard thing to achieve for SO SO Many... but it is key to becoming the healthier person we can be : MIND, BODY, SPIRIT, RELATIONSHIPS. It's letting go of the past, and being in the NOW. It's forgiving the past and ourselves, not necessarily forgetting, but learning from our mistakes to change our future behavior in the present day."
I just wrote the above on another person's page... reread and thought, DAMN! I have to save that one.. so here it is.
It kinda works with what's been milling in my head about balance. It is SO frickin' hard, it's not funny and I accept this: I am STILL working on it...and I don't know if I will ever figure it out.
When one thing is the focus, another thing gets put to the side... ok, many things get put to the side....until one by one the scale becomes more balanced with time and experience and things finally settle down.
I'm finding that even at work, another task is thrown at me and I feel my heart start to race because I barely learned the last thing they showed me...and I'm scared I will forget what I just learned when things get nuts. But deep inside...I KNOW that things will balance out and I have to trust my brain and the learning process.
Trusting the learning process is probably the hardest thing. You have to go through the baby steps in order to learn how to run the marathon in stride. You can throw this thinking at anything really...including changing your eating patterns and incorporating activity into your life.
I was standing at the dispatch counter at work yesterday and I had a flashback to college, when I was actually the one on the other side of the counter training. 20 years ago and here I am again, back in the field of aviation - 20 years of experience and life in between this woman and that girl... and it's a bit trippy because in a sense, it feels like a "redo".
But a redo for what?
To influence future pilots in their current and future goals? Maybe.
To complete a license I didn't finish because of time & money constraints? Maybe
To go further and conquer some fears from 20 years ago? Maybe
That last one is the scariest of the 3 bopping around in my head... it's the most broad too... but this woman is not that girl and longer and I have learned I can do and overcome whatever life will throw at me... but to think about it and get nervous about the unknown seems to be the biggest fear I have to conquer at the moment.
Maybe that is my lesson to learn.. to go with the flow and keep my brain on an even keel instead of worrying about "the unknown". Hell....LIFE is the unknown and I am surviving, right? LOL....why get all bent out of shape at work for some little daily unknowns, that will eventually become routine the more you are exposed to them.
Anyway... that was what was floating around in my head yesterday when I was talking to an instructor. Once I get the job down, I will investigate my license... maybe it's about crossing it off my bucket list
Must have had to get that off my brain....
Chucking in another ANYWAAAAAAY here...
So ANYWAY....My hubby finally inflated my new exercise ball
that he got me for Christmas
I missed that damn thing! I have been playing on it every since it was blown up! It's become a yearly pattern that I strength train when American Idol comes back on tv... so here I am again, doing just that after so many months. Little by little, rep by rep, I do a few here, a few there.... it's probably the most fun thing I do for MYSELF in a day... and it's only been 2 days of it being blown up!
But at least I know what I like
Honestly....the other day, I was at work and I had to check a high-wing aircraft for fuel capacity - and I had to haul my butt up 5 feet to access the cap - and I did it just fine, because my co-worker didn't have to boost my butt up for me or anything embarassing like that - but ummm, someone is a little outta shape and was a little sore the next day! I'm not 22 and heavy and outta shape anymore, but being off the exercise track hit me like a brick...and I am way tougher than that! Gotta represent the elderly here and how we can be totally on the mark or even better in our 40s! Especially to a bunch of 20-something guys! LOL
So welcome back exercise ball! Old buddy, old friend! You are back home where you belong!