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Saturday, January 18, 2014

I have always craved comfort and relief and for me I found it in food. My body tells what I do in secret, publicly. It shows publicly the over abundance of food I crave and eat and it lingers. My body is overfilled with the thing I give most of my attention, the fruit I crave so to speak. I am looking at my life, my bank account, my priorities and it all leads to one priority...my craving for food. I am consumed by the comfort I find in food. To deal with childhood hurts...I used food. To protect myself from evil onlookers I insulated myself with layers of fat. Subconsciously I created for the public what I truly feel about myself...disgust and disrespect for my body. My weight has become a safety net, a friend. I wanted others to experience the disgust I feel because of the things that have happened to me. I have been afraid of onlookers because I thought that I was only an object of lust to others. TODAY I know that I am going to be helped with my doubt, unbelief and fear. I will receive what is needed as my cravings are renewed with more CRAVINGS for HP. I know I am MADE TO CRAVE HP and I surrender IT ALL RIGHT NOW. Thanks for letting me share. I am getting better one day at a time
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