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LETTING GO


Saturday, January 18, 2014

I have always craved comfort and relief and for me I found it in food. My body tells what I do in secret, publicly. It shows publicly the over abundance of food I crave and eat and it lingers. My body is overfilled with the thing I give most of my attention, the fruit I crave so to speak. I am looking at my life, my bank account, my priorities and it all leads to one priority...my craving for food. I am consumed by the comfort I find in food. To deal with childhood hurts...I used food. To protect myself from evil onlookers I insulated myself with layers of fat. Subconsciously I created for the public what I truly feel about myself...disgust and disrespect for my body. My weight has become a safety net, a friend. I wanted others to experience the disgust I feel because of the things that have happened to me. I have been afraid of onlookers because I thought that I was only an object of lust to others. TODAY I know that I am going to be helped with my doubt, unbelief and fear. I will receive what is needed as my cravings are renewed with more CRAVINGS for HP. I know I am MADE TO CRAVE HP and I surrender IT ALL RIGHT NOW. Thanks for letting me share. I am getting better one day at a time
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HAPPYJUNEBUG 1/21/2014 1:04AM

    Nicely written, very relatable.

Hang in there! Do what you can for yourself. Identifying the problem is the first step. However, renewing your thinking is the process that really helps heal your mind/thoughts.

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BEESPARKLE 1/19/2014 8:37AM

    I wrote a blog. Perhaps something you may beable to take out of it. Then others you may not want too.

I had a sad life also. I carried that with me for many years. Of people hurting me.

You have to let go and let God help you.

The past will hold you from going forward.

This was good to open up. Let it out. Now you must walk on.

Sister in the Lord

Beesparkle



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MIZPAM25 1/18/2014 9:43PM

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MRSCLARK 1/18/2014 5:32PM

    i can relate to you

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BATCHICK 1/18/2014 4:43PM

    admitting these things to yourself is the first step to making positive changes!

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TIME4DEE 1/18/2014 12:09PM

    It took a lot for you to write this. Honesty is very powerful. You ARE an amazing person. You ARE a beautiful person. LOVE yourself. Look in the mirror EVERYDAY and tell yourself those things ..out loud. Say them out loud so you can hear yourself. They really do make a difference. emoticon emoticon ! One day at a time and one step at a time. Thank you for sharing. emoticon

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PATTYKLAVER 1/18/2014 11:32AM

    I grew up shielding myself from the world with food. It's so hard to stop doing that. But I am learning to love myself one step at a time, one piece at a time. You can do this, too. I know you are a beautiful person.

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BUSYGRANNY5 1/18/2014 10:05AM

    The honesty in your blog is touching! Keep pushing yourself, you're making great progress!!! Keep on keeping on!!

Blessings!

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KNYAGENYA 1/18/2014 9:31AM

    You can do it. Keep up the positive attitude.

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NELLJONES 1/18/2014 8:54AM

    Personally I used food as easy comfort to protect myself from having to be uncomfortable.

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LOVINGLIFE43 1/18/2014 8:34AM

    One step at a time. Keep pushing!

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GOLFGMA 1/18/2014 8:02AM

    You're on the right track to succeed! emoticon

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COCK-ROBIN 1/18/2014 7:06AM

    You are well on your way. Fill up on love, not food.

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BABYSOX 1/18/2014 6:06AM

    Honest statements are so profound. Thank you for sharing.

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SEAJESS 1/18/2014 3:34AM

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Awesome, powerful statement and one to which I can relate. Guess the good news is that we can look at that, let it go, then turn around and face a better future. Here's to a new way of living for us both in 2014! Thanks for writing this insightful blog.
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