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Starting The Battle Again

Friday, January 17, 2014

It is so frustrating to have my weight go up and down so much. When it's down I feel so happy but then it goes back up and it is so depressing. When I lose weight it usually isn't in a healthy way, I basically don't eat much and I know how unhealthy that is, so I really want to do this the right way.
5 years ago I was in a perfect place physically, 135 very fit pounds, eating right, and it's the most amazing I have ever looked and I want that back. I worked very hard to get there, but I was working and went back to school so it made it virtually impossible to eat right and workout. But that is over and I have no more excuses, so it's time to get back there. I am super hopeful, yet super scared of failure.
Today I ate well but I did not workout because I wasn't feeling well, so I've been kind of down on myself........ But hey, tomorrow is a new day and another chance to do the best I can :-)
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JIBBIE49 1/18/2014 6:46PM


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NIKO27 1/18/2014 3:15PM


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    every day is another day one! keep on trying! you'll get there!

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SPEEDY143 1/18/2014 3:20AM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon

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DWROBERGE 1/18/2014 1:28AM

    Keep focused for success. You can do it too, Go for it.

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KTLASERS 1/18/2014 12:39AM

    emoticon You'll find good company here!

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TXPATRIOT 1/17/2014 11:22PM

    I have struggled with fear of failure most of my life. In the last year, I truly wrestled with that aspect of my life. It's was not an overnight thing, but I've come to realize that failure is not the worst outcome, not trying or not persevering though the failures is much worse. It has been so liberating!

I've also worked very hard to disconnect my mood to weight on scale. I know that if I stack up good decisions day after day, I will get more healthy. I don't always make healthy decisions, but I do most of the time. I really try to remind myself that the scale is just a tool--it does not define me.

I usually don't write this much, sorry. I just related to your blog so much.

Best wishes on your health journey!


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USMAWIFE 1/17/2014 10:58PM

    Good luck with your new journey on SP

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