Friday, January 17, 2014
I found this really cool free workbook about eating disorders online.
Here's where it is....
So far I have learned that I am not alone. No matter how bizarre some of my behavior patterns have been there's actually other people out there that have done the same thing.
You mean to tell me that there are actually folks out there that have done the same things? Hmmmm.... I guess that's a good thing. Actually, now that I think about it it's kind of comforting knowing that there are folks out there who are as warped and bizaare as I am. Darn it! Does this mean that there are actually people out there that stand in the kitchen pantry talking to themselves and rationalizing about the cookies that they are about ready to polish off.
Do they continuously look down at their blob of a stomach? Yup! It's still there. The same as it was about 15 minutes ago.
We admitted we were powerless over our eating disorder that our lives had become unmanageable.
Ya think? Admitting I am powerless is actually surrendering to the fact that what I have been doing over and over and over and over again hasn't been working. I must be a slow learner. For years I have been obsessing about the same exact things. Obsessing about food, body image, weight, how many cookies I just ate, how many cookies I haven't eaten, trying to manipulate everything in my life in order to stay comfortable in my ever so bizarre eating habits. I think unmanageable is an understatement. It's more like total and absolute torture.
Okay..... now that I've admitted I am powerless what next?
And the saga continues.....
May the fairies come down and take all your worries away!!
Just something to think about.....