Thursday, January 16, 2014
Well, it's been a crazy couple of months. I've been working a lot of long hours the last couple months and, just when I thought I was going to get a nice break over Christmas, I ended up working along with putting my Mother in a nursing home and cleaning out her apartment.
I have been feeling very alone as of late. I live alone, eat my lunch alone at work as I have to fill in when everyone else is on lunch, then I'm alone when I get home. Most of the time it doesn't bother me so much, but lately it has really been getting to me. I know that no one can do anything to change this but myself, but I am just really feeling down.
My goal in the next few weeks is to decide what I need to do to make myself happy and feel good about myself. I struggle with self esteem issues and this is something I really need to overcome. I have never felt that I was "good enough" at anything... This is something I REALLY need to work on. This will help with my weight loss efforts as well as I am an emotional eater.
On a positive note... My daughter is getting married this Fall so that's exciting. Got to get enough weight off so I don't have to wear a dress that looks like a bag!!! lol