Thursday, January 16, 2014
I have the start of a nasty cold. I haven't slept well due to coughing a lot so I have been awake since dark thirty....For me that means time to think. I thought about all the things I had planned today. By now I would be at the gym running on a treadmill since the belt on mine broke. I was able to sign up for 2 months then I will be running outside. I also thought about how I will be missing weight lifting class. I love that class so much and I can see how much stronger I am getting. I love that. I realized that I need to be well rested to lift weights. I use my brain more lifting weights than any other workout I do. I believe that good form is important and when I am tired that isn't possible for me. I do know that I also had a date with myself to walk to town to deposit my paycheck. Now that I believe I can do that once I get some rest. While I have been up I have had time to think about my life style change and the positive effects I have had. I remember the time I went shopping for blue jeans. I was so excited to bring home a size 9. I had been double digits in clothing all of my adult life. I even got up to a size 16/18. Now being that size did not feel good physically or emotionally. I had a hard time getting around and doing the simplest things like tying my shoes. I did not like what I saw in the mirror. I knew I had to change this. So when I came home with those size 9's I knew I was on the right track. I was grateful for those size 9's that day but to be honest I don't want to go back there. I love living in my size 1's. I do know for me it's not about the number. I have learned that in this life style change it's about good health. So being smaller is good for my arthritis. That extra weight was hard on my joints. When I was heavier I had asthma too so now that is gone. I also know that my clean eating life style has helped too as my hypoglycemia is better. I don't find it hard to stay this size. The only fight I have is other people telling me that I am too skinny. It's not about being too skinny it's all about my health. Hopefully when I build some more serious muscles people will stop calling me too skinny. But if they don't I say "go get some tissues and deal with your issues" I am doing this for me and my health so I don't care what you think. As I sit here I can tell that the thinking about things is mostly gone so now I am getting tired. I knew that would happen. So I am off for the rest I need as that is good for a healthy life style too.