Wednesday, January 15, 2014
I know it's been awhile since I've blogged, but I don't know. I have a blog sitting in my drafts box, and I just haven't had the desire to finish it. Perhaps I will at some point.
Daisy's doing well. She is very sweet and silly. Yeeeeeah, I'd say I love her. Not as much as Sammy, and I'll never love her like I loved him, but that's okay. She'll have her own "groovy kind of love."
So far, New Year's stuff is going okay. I'm meeting my goals with decent consistency. I still go over calories sometimes. I still sometimes eat outside of my plan...but for the most part, things are going well with that. I've found some good go-to meals that I find keep me full. I've found some decent routines to keep me where I want to be, as well.
Work is...really hard right now. The interim boss in my department is also the head of another department. She asked me to help in her department, and now my supervisors are pretty upset. One asked me how I was going to make up my time, and when I sent an answer by email, the second one started asking more questions and copied the big interim boss. I responded, and then she came back seeking more clarification. Both emails were terse and unnecessary, but I was going to answer the second one nicely, as I had the first one. Before I could, though, my big boss jumped in and gave her a spanking, telling her I'm not an hourly employee and that we don't need to harp on my lunch breaks. She said, "Let's allow people to do their work without interfering." YIKES. Even though I had nothing to do with that, and I didn't even copy the boss on the emails, now that woman isn't speaking to ME. And the last few days, both of them have been on my case like never before (when they're not having meetings behind closed doors, which they never do), making up new tasks for me, one by email (since she isn't speaking to me), one in constant and constantly-shriller conversations. Criticisms for things I have said before and gotten agreement on, reprimands for things that a week ago I would have gotten support for...it's really egregious and bad, and other people have noticed.
And it'll probably blow over pretty quickly, but not quickly enough for me. It's also so hard, because we are not a drama-full office. Stuff like this NEVER happens. Being in the middle of this storm is hurtful, disorienting, and baffling. What I'm doing is not unprecedented--two of my colleagues have done the same thing. And it's good professional practice to help other departments. Storm aside, I'm shocked at the lack of support from an extremely supportive group.
But I am strong. I've been down about it, but I'm done with that. This is THEIR issue, not mine. It's only mine if I claim it, and I'm done claiming it. I'm not doing anything wrong. So I will keep my head down. Nose to the grindstone. Just the facts, ma'am. Above reproach. I will weather this.
And I worked a 10 hour day yesterday with a 7 minute lunch and still made it to the gym. BAM. How's that for a weight loss plan?