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Wednesday, January 15, 2014

I know it's been awhile since I've blogged, but I don't know. I have a blog sitting in my drafts box, and I just haven't had the desire to finish it. Perhaps I will at some point.

Daisy's doing well. She is very sweet and silly. Yeeeeeah, I'd say I love her. Not as much as Sammy, and I'll never love her like I loved him, but that's okay. She'll have her own "groovy kind of love."

So far, New Year's stuff is going okay. I'm meeting my goals with decent consistency. I still go over calories sometimes. I still sometimes eat outside of my plan...but for the most part, things are going well with that. I've found some good go-to meals that I find keep me full. I've found some decent routines to keep me where I want to be, as well.

Work is...really hard right now. The interim boss in my department is also the head of another department. She asked me to help in her department, and now my supervisors are pretty upset. One asked me how I was going to make up my time, and when I sent an answer by email, the second one started asking more questions and copied the big interim boss. I responded, and then she came back seeking more clarification. Both emails were terse and unnecessary, but I was going to answer the second one nicely, as I had the first one. Before I could, though, my big boss jumped in and gave her a spanking, telling her I'm not an hourly employee and that we don't need to harp on my lunch breaks. She said, "Let's allow people to do their work without interfering." YIKES. Even though I had nothing to do with that, and I didn't even copy the boss on the emails, now that woman isn't speaking to ME. And the last few days, both of them have been on my case like never before (when they're not having meetings behind closed doors, which they never do), making up new tasks for me, one by email (since she isn't speaking to me), one in constant and constantly-shriller conversations. Criticisms for things I have said before and gotten agreement on, reprimands for things that a week ago I would have gotten support's really egregious and bad, and other people have noticed.

And it'll probably blow over pretty quickly, but not quickly enough for me. It's also so hard, because we are not a drama-full office. Stuff like this NEVER happens. Being in the middle of this storm is hurtful, disorienting, and baffling. What I'm doing is not unprecedented--two of my colleagues have done the same thing. And it's good professional practice to help other departments. Storm aside, I'm shocked at the lack of support from an extremely supportive group.

But I am strong. I've been down about it, but I'm done with that. This is THEIR issue, not mine. It's only mine if I claim it, and I'm done claiming it. I'm not doing anything wrong. So I will keep my head down. Nose to the grindstone. Just the facts, ma'am. Above reproach. I will weather this.

And I worked a 10 hour day yesterday with a 7 minute lunch and still made it to the gym. BAM. How's that for a weight loss plan?
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    I don't have anything to add to the conversation that differs from anything everybody has already said to you. I do believe that you are right, it is their problem to sort out between them. I also agree that they are both probably in line for the vacancy, or at least want to be in line for it, and by "proving" they are in charge gives them the upper hand. Just keep doing what you feel to be the right thing to do, and by taking the high road, and not getting sucked into their petty control game, you will be the one that comes out shining in the end. At the least, you will know that you did the right thing for you. Great job on still hitting the gym. Smart and determined! You are a force to be reckoned with! ~hugs~

    1513 days ago
  • L*I*T*A*
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    1518 days ago
    BAM! awesome for 1 - continuing on your weight loss journey;
    2 - for giving the problem back to those who created it. sounds to me like they might both want the vacant job and are in a power struggle over who is in charge.

    Hang in and BREAHTE deep, as you say this to shall pass!

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    1523 days ago
    Well, I know my comment is standing on the shoulders of a whole bunch of supportive comments from people who know you and know what you're going through. Good job on taking care of your self with a good attitude, getting to the gym, and bringing your story to Spark. We can do it!

    1526 days ago
    So sorry about the stresses at work :( Hang in there and ya for going to the gym still!
    1526 days ago
    emoticon some people NEVER grow up! rise above and karma will treat you well! emoticon emoticon
    1527 days ago
    ugh, sorry to hear about the work issue.. I think it is clear enough, if the higher up boss asks you to do something.. you do it!
    Sounds like you have the right attitude to weather the storm.. Good luck!
    And great job on working on your goals!
    Keep rockin' it!
    1527 days ago
    Ugh - sounds rough! I would bring it up -- they know they are being passive aggressive (or at times not so passive I guess!) but they need to be called out on it! It's a tough situation but I'm afraid if it just blows over that it will happen again. I don't have a ton of advice for you but there's this: emoticon emoticon
    1527 days ago
    You rock! I wish all offices treated their employees as adults.
    1527 days ago
    I agree. Do your job and leave the craziness alone. Hugs, Laurel
    1527 days ago
  • JOJO_2013
    Wow! You are way stronger than me. I would have totally dove into a bag of chips. I applaud your strength. I do hope things get better though. I worked in tough situations and it is not easy! emoticon
    Way to go on getting to the gym! I find that a good workout always helps the stress melt away! emoticon
    1527 days ago
    emoticon Best wishes!
    1527 days ago
    Wow. It sounds like you have some dysfunction in your workplace all right. Is this a turf war between the "big boss" and your supervisor that you are caught in the middle of, or do you think there is something else going on. It probably does wonders for you rep that you are putting in long days with short lunches, but you shouldn't feel that you have to do that to "prove yourself" to anybody. You are a professional and deserve to be treated like one.

    Hang in there.
    1527 days ago
    I like your attitude. Do your job, keep your nose close to the grinding stone, and then let the others figure out for themselves what their problem is. I, actually, think it is jealousy. It will blow over, but I know how disturbing it can be in the meantime.
    Hang in there, friend.
    1527 days ago
    Way to go with your self-care, exercise, & mostly good eating!

    And I'm so proud of your approach to the work woes. There's a conflict going on in my family right now, & at first I was SO distressed about it . . . but, like you, I have gradually been able to bracket it & focus on my "task," to take care of the person who most needs my love right now. And she's thinking/praying about what to ask forgiveness for, but realizing that doing the right things to heal the relationship doesn't guarantee healing.

    We are so MATURE! emoticon

    But still, I hope your various bosses come to their senses soon, or at least just forget about this whole silliness on their part. You don't deserve any blame in this situation!

    1527 days ago
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