Wednesday, January 15, 2014
Got some great, yet terrifying, news last night - the theatre company that I do shows with has gotten the rights to a particular show and I get the lead! When I first read the script, I just fell in love with the character. This is my dream role, so I am ecstatic!!
The show goes up a little over a year from now, which is excellent news because it gives me plenty of time to get in shape for this. The costuming and character are such that I'll need to be in a good place with my body and confident with wearing... well, clothes that I normally wouldn't wear onstage. Or offstage, for that matter. I know myself well enough to know that, if I don't get at least *close* to my goal weight for this show, I won't be able to fully commit to the character and really lose myself in it because I'll be too worried about the audience thinking I'm a fatass and whether or not my stomach is sticking out too much and whether the stage lights are causing weird shadows on the cellulite on my hips and... you get the idea.
I've been struggling with motivation, so this is great because it is ROCK. SOLID. motivation for me. To me, this is different than wanting to drop a few pounds because I'm going to the beach for vacation or whatever. At the beach, you're one person amongst many and aren't necessarily going to be noticed. This is totally different - there are a lot of people and ALL EYES are on YOU. Judging. For about 90 minutes. EEEEK! But I love theatre and I love this part and this show and I'm so freaking excited! Finally being able to get where I've wanted to be body-wise for, well, EVER, is the icing on the cake.
OK, that might be a bad choice of words. Gravy on the chicken fried steak? Cherry on top? ;)