Wednesday, January 15, 2014
Every night, my body is ready for bed around 8 or 9, but that's my first opportunity of the day to get stuff done sans kids, so my brain won't let me go. By the time I'm ready for bed, my body is awake. By the time my body is tired again, my mind is inevitably engaged in something else, like a tv show or a web search. Whenever that is finished, my body and brain are out of sync, and I have to meditate, lest I lay in bed not sleeping and getting stressed. When I meditate, I fall asleep in my chair until the baby wakes up around 2. By the time she's done nursing and I'm finally falling asleep, it's between 2:30 and 3. The she nurses about every two hours. Then a big kid comes in around 7.
You don't have to do the math so realize that's not enough sleep. Even if Angela didn't nurse at night (but then, how would I wake up in my chair?), I'd still only get a few hours. So I the morning I either doze or wander aimlessly because I'm so sleep deprived.
If I could just get up early and get stuff done, I wouldn't feel pressured to stay up and do it. The. Again, I'd still feel obligated to stay up with Mike because our time together doesn't start until after 9pm, at which point I don't generally get anything else done, anyway.
I don't have the solution, but what I'm doing isn't working. Sleep is important. I have to figure this out.