Tuesday, January 14, 2014
pilates mat class at new health club. though i'm not sure what is 'pilates' about it. no props. hard to hear teacher. i was the biggest gal there. perhaps the worst dressed. not sure about that. day 2 of 'good sparky eating and tracking' in my range. woohoo i have 'issues' with how i look, not knowing how i look, being 'cheap' and in the habit of 'not caring' what i put on my body as long as it fits -- not fitting into things i maybe would like … not knowing what i like… a chain reaction. It's a bigger conversation…for another day.
Anyway… I'm proud of myself for finding the grace in my movements as a way to move away from the negative impact of other mirror perceptions. AND.. i was outgoing with two people. Yep. really. No expectations. But … wanting to acknowledge. Not sure how often I plan on blogging here. Getting back in the habit of being online here daily. Tis a good thing. Feeling Grateful. g'nite all. cu tamari