Monday, January 13, 2014
Diet wasn't perfect this weekend. I stepped on the scale this morning for the first time in a few days and it wasn't surprising that I am now 5 lbs above goal weight. I didn't feel crushed by the number because I ate way too much salt and carbs in the past 2 days. The nature walk really refreshed my perspective though. I kept trying to battle with myself about this. I was seriously considering going back full on Medifast for a month or so but then what? I'd have this problem again when I eat normal food again. I can't keep hiding forever behind an easy solution. And a very expensive one because in those 5 months I spent over $3,000.
Restriction isn't the solution. I need to be more physically active. I liked the sore feeling I got when I finished the nature walk. It felt like my body was used for something other than playing Skyrim for 15 hours straight. Which I did, yesterday. Since getting the new computer I have logged 44 hours on Skyrim. It's addicting.
I've always had this problem of being too extreme. I am great at extremes. All out restriction or all out feasting. I can't name a single moment in my life where I've had to do long term moderation. I'm trying to find balance and it's taking a long time because I've never had it before.
I've grown attached to potato soup from Chili's. I keep looking up healthier versions and it seems too complicated.