Monday, January 13, 2014
Will I ever have this journey completely figured out? I'm beginning to think part of making these changes and getting them to stick is accepting that I will never be perfect with it. There will be times I eat crap or don't work out. There will be times where I gain a few pounds. What I need to learn is to forgive myself those slip-ups and not let them hold me down. One bad day does not mean I have to undo all the good I've accomplished. Missing a few workouts doesn't mean I should just throw away the strength and fitness I've achieved so far.
I keep trying to remind myself of how good it feels to walk up stairs and not get winded. Or to be able to slide into a booth in a restaurant without fearing I can't fit. Or how while I hate every second of it while I'm doing it, I can actually hold a plank position now! I couldn't do any of those things at the beginning of September. It's okay to be proud of myself for these small changes! It's okay to use them to get me through the harder times.
I've been thinking about this a lot lately as I not only rebound from the holidays and my knee injury, but as I come off a bad eating day yesterday.
Yesterday was not my best day eating wise. I got my workout in and I tracked everything I ate (oh the horrors of those calories in black-and-white). With the workout calories burned, I was within range, but sometimes I wonder about my brain and the why of everything. Like I keep reminding myself - all I can do is not beat myself up about things, learn from it, and move on.
I'm pretty sure the culprit yesterday began with me sleeping in way later than I normally allow myself to do (usually up at six on weekdays and eight on weekends, but slept until 11am) and I missed breakfast. Then, when I finally got some motivation to get out of bed and face the day, I grabbed crap rather than taking a few minutes to put together something healthy. The only real meal I had yesterday was dinner and the rest was snacking.
Positive side: I worked out for forty minutes. The gremlin voice was strong at points, convincing me I'd already messed up my food and what could one day hurt away from working out? Stupid gremlin voice. Finally, at around two pm, I stuck with my normal trick to get myself working out - I forced myself to give it ten minutes. If ten minutes in, I still don't want to do it, I can stop. I think I've only actually stopped once in five months.
So the day wasn't all bad. Must learn to focus on the positive more! Must take stock of the good as well as the bad!
Now that I'm getting back into my daily routine after the holidays, I think my goal for this week is to get back to meal planning and actually cooking those planned meals. No eating out or snacking to replace meals. Also, continue to struggle with my sodium intake. Some days I can do really good and then other days, I don't even realize the amount of sodium until I run my report at the end of the day.
Have a great week everyone! Let's all use those non-scale victories to keep us motivated!