where I am at
Monday, January 13, 2014
So the new year has been rocky. well kind of. As of yesterday I am out of a serious relationship that I thought meant a lot to me, but as I sit here today, all I can think of is.. wow im down 140lbs (that's how much he weighed) lol I guess by the good graces of the universe the healing process has begun!
I have realized though that I had fallen back into some very old habits again. I stopped making my wellbeing and fitness goals a priority. I focused on everyone else instead of me. I allowed stress to overcome me and stopped pushing myself. all of the above will stop today!
I am 1 year post gastric bypass as of nov.5 2013. I have gone from 277 to 156 (last timed I weighed about 1 month ago) my progress is amazing to me! although at times I feel alone. and to be honest I don't recognize the person I see in the mirror. but I had forgotten the reason I started all of this...to live! not just to exist! to be an example to my girls..to be around to hold future grandbabies :) (waaaaaay in the future) to do everything I have always wanted to do but my weight limited. and to find the person I buried under all of that weight.
My goal for the upcoming months is to be kind to myself, put my needs first. to continue my journey! I want to learn new ways to tone and strengthen this new body of mine. learn more about vegan nutrition and how to sustain the nutrition I need on that lifestyle change. and I am going to make time to learn this website better and how to utilize all it has to offer.
I WANT TO THANK ALL OF YOU! every one who takes the time to read my posts or blogs. to give that encouragement. and I want to thank "sparkpeople" for giving me a safe place to blog my thoughts and feelings. it has helped me to have a place to say what I need to and not be judged for it. good luck to me and to everyone out there! we can do this