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Letting Go and Living in Celebration

Monday, January 13, 2014

I'm warming up and gathering speed as I travel down the runway to takeoff for my 5th anniversary of achieving a healthy weight after more than 5 decades of being overweight or obese. The date is still 8 weeks away. Am I overdoing this?? Yeah, maybe, but it is me. I'm happy living in a state of celebration!!

Reviewing my old blogs has been fun, too. Wish I'd been blogging during the time I lost the weight, but I didn't start until I came to SparkPeople and was getting close to my final goal weight. Okay, look at what I was blogging mid-November 2009:

* I told of knee pain on one day, but it was already much better the next day. I really hadn't remembered that knees had been an issue that recently. I've been running since January 2011 and have had no knee pain since then. I faithfully did the exercises in the SparkPeople article about strengthening and stretching knees and I'm sure it helped!

* I celebrated that granddaughter Natalie was potty trained. Well, now it is Gwen, her 3 year old sister. She's not had an accident in several weeks. Hubby has agreed to new carpet or flooring after this accomplishment. Time to start shopping!

* I shared that I had planned a whole day of eating and proposed to do a month of meal plans and shopping lists. I still do my best eating when I've planned ahead. I have made some meal plans, but they could still be improved.

Reading back, the blog that affected me the most I titled, "Regrets, I Have a Few...":

"Eating healthy feels so right now. How I wish I had found this lifestyle years ago. How would my life have been different?

"Oh, who knows. With more confidence I might have made more mistakes! LOL None of us can go back. So let's go forward, smarter and wiser.... "

But now, have I gone on "smarter and wiser"? There are times I still wonder what my teenage and young adult years would have been had I figured out how to eat healthy decades earlier. There are times I still want to blame my mom, and dad, for raising me fat. I recognize that there is nothing to be gained from such self-indulgent dreaming. There are times I still feel like I missed out. Well, so be it. This year a teenage family member who was so fit and beautiful made some bad mistakes that will affect her the rest of her life. It touched me in many ways. Of course, I want to support her now, but I also want to use this lesson to help me once and for all let go those things, those years, I cannot re-live. My life might not have been any better had I been a healthy weight my whole life. So, over 4 years ago, I knew I needed to let go this resentment and regret, but I'm still working on it!!

So, thanks, SparkFriends, for letting me share and vent. I truly enjoy living in a state of celebration of my health and fitness, even if I didn't get to it until late in life!!


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AQUAGIRL08 1/14/2014 3:52PM

    Better late than never! All during my teenage years, my mom made comments about how large I was. This made me self conscious and eroded my self esteem. I was a shade under 5'6" and weighed 135 pounds. Looking back, I can see that I looked fine and was a healthy weight. I felt like I was fat and ugly. I spent most of the rest of my life ashamed of my weight and appearance. What I am trying to say is that weighing a certain number doesn't determine what we are on the inside. Even at a healthy weight, I still thought I was fat because of the way I was treated at home.

You are beautiful both inside and out, Marsha! It just took you a while to realize it. Congratulations on all you have achieved!

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TAICHIDANCER 1/14/2014 8:37AM

    Can't tell you how many times I've wished for a time machine. But as _LINDA posted earlier: better late than never.

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_LINDA 1/13/2014 10:46PM

    emoticon Better late than never!
Coming up on an exciting anniversary!!


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OHMEMEME 1/13/2014 9:10PM

    And the party goes on...! Keep celebrating and no way is it too soon to do so! I read something the other day that says the average lifespan is about 25,000 days and hitting 50 I realize that gives me 0-8000 so I want every one of those left to be about celebrating life today and not holding on to any past days that do not serve my purpose today. Congrats on maintenance. You inspire and give hope that it is possible to do so.
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SLIMLILA 1/13/2014 8:52PM

    Loved your blog, Marsha.. Congrats ahead of time, what's wrong with celebrating..... shows me what a long way I have to go...and it's not just with the diet either, as you pointed out..

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STRIVERONE 1/13/2014 8:34PM

    I can identify with you second to last paragraph. No resentment, but a little regret.

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WATERMELLEN 1/13/2014 5:46PM

    Great blog. Letting go of regret and resentment . . . yeah. Tough. I suppose that being a parent ourselves (and in your case a grandparent too!) helps us forgive. Most of the time, our parents probably did the best they could with the wisdom and the info that they had at the time: and so did we as parents. I'm hoping my DD and DS are able to forgive me for all the mistakes I made. "Forgive us our trespasses . . ." I suppose.

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TRAVELGRRL 1/13/2014 5:04PM

    Better late than never! And it's never too late! emoticon

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GABY1948 1/13/2014 2:33PM

    Marsha, I share so many of the regrets with you but I am not going to look back anymore...it's pointless...I am going to be the best that I can be...and like ONEKIDSMOM tells us we are WORTH it (this new life)!

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BOOKAPHILE 1/13/2014 1:35PM

    We can't change the past. Letting it go and moving forward is the only thing that makes sense.

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MEXGAL1 1/13/2014 10:42AM

    I like the comment "living in a state of celebration"....I am going to borrow that as it fits me well now that I have my autoimmune disorders under control.
Have a terrific week.
Sallie

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MARGARITTM 1/13/2014 9:27AM

    Let it go...... move forward ..... what a fabulous example you are giving your children and grandchildren!

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SUNSHINE99999 1/13/2014 9:22AM

  you made the best decision. I hope your week is great. emoticon

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