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Monday, January 13, 2014

WEll I just had a major wolfie attack.
Today was a day for chores. Paperwork, billing, filing, charting, end of year stuff for taxes etc. That was my goal today was to finish all of that paperwork and get the christmas decorations put away.
I was trying to avoid the computer soberistas chat site all day and just checking in quickly at my other forums email, face book. quick checks but try to stay out of the chat room. So I did that up until around 9pm. That is when jeff left to have a beer with his friend, I finished watching downton abby and the wolfie started to howl....why was I not drinking anyway?.... I proved that I am not an alcoholic over the holidays with flying colors..... I could go to the store and pick me up some of my favorite drinks.... it is only 3 blocks away.... No one would have to know...people relapse all of the time, why couldn't I. But then I would have to start at day one all over again and have to tell Belle. So I went in the kitchen and drank 24 oz of diet cranberry juice mixed with water, gulped it down and poured a half cup of jelly bellies to munch on. Was going to text my therapist but decided that I would try it on my own and went back to charting. At 9;30 the wolfie who is now just my pleasure seeking side of my self is howling to go to the chat rooms. I put headphones on and listened to delila.
I yelled aloud, NO I AM GOING TO FINISH MY CHARTING!
FU wolfie!
So I finished all of my paper work stuff and went directly into the living room to start taking down the christmas decorations. I finished doing that around 11pm. Will put the tree up in the attic tomorrow so I left it lite one more night just little white lights so pretty.
When jeff came home he scared me because I did not hear him come in.
I made it.
whew.
I had used chewing gum earlier, I used cranberry water, I had a therapist to text if I needed her, a friend to call if I needed to, I used my voice out loud to scare wolfie away, sweets to keep my mouth busy, distracted myself and got accomplished what I set out to do. I used my tool chest.
I feel quite proud of myself. I have my friend here that I can share my story to and eventually I will swing by the chat rooms for a very brief hello if anyone is in there. I will post this blog at sevral places to tell my story and get support from all of you wonderful people.
So thank you for reading and responding.
bizi who is getting ready to chat for a few before bed.
bizi


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LYDDIECAT 1/21/2014 9:32PM

    Way to use that tool chest!

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GETTINFIT-2014 1/19/2014 4:52PM

    Great Job!!

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JODROX 1/18/2014 10:45AM

    Way to go! You are awesome!

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FRENCHSEAMS 1/14/2014 9:11AM

    Great job in doing what makes you feel the best in the long run.

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SOFT_VAL67 1/13/2014 2:55PM

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GLC2009 1/13/2014 2:40PM

    emoticon you are an inspiration with your will power. keep it up.

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WOUBBIE 1/13/2014 2:35PM

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CAROL_31649731 1/13/2014 12:42PM

    Inspiring story . . . thanks for sharing! You did an awesome job scaring wolfie away. Loved hearing about your "tools." Good idea to have them at-the-ready!!! emoticon emoticon

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THINANDFITEMILY 1/13/2014 10:39AM

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NEWMEELIE 1/13/2014 10:32AM

    Wow, you dealt with that amazingly! You're a very strong lady.

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MEADSBAY 1/13/2014 10:13AM

    I am so very impressed!
You showed him/her who's boss.
Thnx for sharing as I learned from your set of tools.
You are such an amazing woman.
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WATERWITCH 1/13/2014 9:48AM

    Wow--very impressed! Great job using all the tools you have to fight off the craving.

I think Wolfie, or whatever you call it--the pleasure seeking side--is just around to do us harm. In whatever form it can.

Great job!

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LOLA_LALA 1/13/2014 9:07AM

    Bizi, you should be enormously proud of yourself right now. Keep Wolfie at bay, and there's no doubt whatsoever in my mind that you can do this. I could feel the tension you endured via your wonderful writing, and yet you grabbed everything you could to ward off the urge. Don't turn back; you've come too far now. YOU CAN DEFINITELY DO THIS, *and* YOU HAVE JUST PROVED IT!! emoticon

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CAPECODBABE 1/13/2014 8:37AM

    Stay strong emoticon emoticon emoticon
Don't you feel better this morning! emoticon
You accomplished so much emoticon

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SEPTEMBERSPIRIT 1/13/2014 4:43AM

    emoticon emoticon Bizi - you kicked wolfie's a$$

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