Sunday, January 12, 2014
I've been living with my head in the sand. At least for the past year. I've gained over 20 lbs. since last June. It has been too hard to stay motivated. It's stupid to say this, but I have regressed to binge eating. Something I had thought I'd gotten past. I guess I've been depressed. Come to think of it, the weight started going up after my dr. upped one of my medicines last June. Then, I was put on 2 other meds. by October. But I can't blame it on that. I just gave up and over ate what I wanted.
You know what? It's not good to go to the coffee shop and get a "small" latte and 2 chocolate chunk cookies - and on the way back to work, devouring both cookies so no one knows. Who would have thought that, right? Hey, I did it soooo many times the past few months.
So here I am, up to 185.2 lbs. on January 12, 2014. Never in my wildest dreams/nightmares had I ever dreamed I'd weigh this much. I am so ashamed of myself. I am going to lose this weight the right way by taking it one minute at a time. I am not going to put pressure on myself by setting a "deadline". What I really want is to lose 40 lbs. So, I am back to Spark. I don't know what else I can say, except I am going to try hard to make this work.