Friday, January 10, 2014
It was a late work day yesterday (heck today too!), after 8 pm when finished and I was HUNGRY! Way more than my usual hunger thus far in my re-set for the new year. But I thought of WATERMELLEN's advice from www.fatloser.com and Siebold's tip to welcome hunger as a sign that one's efforts are paying off and weight is being lost.
I have an ancient, automatic response to hunger which says: FEED ME!
I had to pick up some freggies and canned goods at the grocery store which were going to go off sale by the end of the week and I knew I'd be too busy to get there beyond today.
So I'm in probably the very WORST condition to be waltzing through a grocery store! I had developed a hugely horrible habit over the past several weeks to "reward" or "self-sooth" myself with a carbie snack whenever I go to the grocery store or drug store. So I resolved that it just ain't gonna happen anymore!
I whizzed through, avoiding all the tempting aisles, got the freggies & canned goods I was going after & outta the store minus any indulgences and made it home to MY own food!
But even THEN I wasn't out of the woods. I realized that I was trying to talk myself into eating something OTHER than the home-made black bean soup which I planned on. I teased apart my thinking a little further. It went something like this:
"Jeez I'm REALLY hungry, maybe I'd better have something more substantial than the soup I had planned. Since I'm limiting my food intake to only between Noon and 8-9 pm, how about some eggs, cheese and salsa...that'll stick to my ribs better and hold me overnight. Besides, I avoided buying any carbie junk, why not reward myself?" Sneaky booger, that inner tiger I'm trying to cage!
I realized I was acting like a fireman rushing to a fire and looking to put it out as best I could. I stepped back and reminded myself yet again about Siebold's talk about hunger being a GOOD thing, an indicator that my plan is working, that I'm torching calories! I reminded myself of all the freggies I'd had earlier today along with portioned cheese and was like "who am I kidding?"
So I stuck with the bowl of soup, dodged a craving bullet tonight and learned to turn my "mortal enemy," hunger into my best bud!
I got a kick out of a co-worker today who stops by all the time to graze out of my bowl of freggies which I put out everyday for myself and whoever's interested. He tossed me a $20 bill as he does now & then saying: "thanks for keeping me stocked on the good stuff! If this wasn't around I'd be eating all sorts of garbage everyday!"
I think I've started my own CSA at work! :-)