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My Journey to Here

Friday, January 10, 2014

Hey there - happy Friday!

My name is Brittney Faith, and this is my first SparkPeople blog. I have been a member of the SP site since 2012, but I really only read the articles and sometimes used the recipes that came to my email via the mailings. I have never tracked through SP and never been part of the SP community before.

I am 23 years old, and I weigh 285 pounds. It has been a constant struggle throughout my life, as I have always been the "bigger" girl anywhere I went.

I yo-yo'ed a bit in high school, getting down to about 170 before going back to around 250, where I stayed until I was 21.

At 21, I wanted a change - I dieted hard, eating way too few calories, and I exercised to the point of exhaustion 6 times a week - I'm talking 3 hours of cardio followed by another 2 of strength training, and that was after a full day of work and night classes. I lost the weight quickly, getting down to about 180 again.

As anyone who has followed an unsustainable diet/fitness plan before, it lasted for awhile before my body began to hate me. I let up and stayed comfortably around 200 for the next year.

In the beginning of 2013, I began to have a ton of health problems, which ended up with me being diagnosed as having severe vitamin deficiencies - it felt like my body was arthritic, and at 22 I couldn't get out of bed in the morning, let alone exercise. In June, I suffered a back injury on top of that, and spent the next 4 months in a blur of bone marrow biopsies, spinal injections, and pain. I didn't exercise at all, and to cope with the problems, I turned to my usual comfort - food. In 10 months, I gained almost 90 pounds, leaving me just 15 pounds shy of 300.

So, here I am, back in the yo-yo position I promised myself never to be in again. It's been tough accepting the weight gain, especially when I think back to the blood, sweat, and tears that got me through those grueling gym sessions in the first place.

I went to a weight loss surgery seminar last night, and it was really tough for me. I was the youngest person there by far, and I KNOW I can do it - I feel like getting a lap band is an easy way out, but I also know that no matter what, I want this weight to come off before my weight causes even bigger health issues to my body.

My back is so much better now, and now that my health is picking itself up I am getting back to my well underused gym membership. My initial goals are simple: go the to gym for an hour 2x week, drink 8 glasses of water a day, and try to get a consistent sleep schedule set down. I am working on preparing myself for the nutrition aspect of weight loss, but I feel like I am not quite ready to jump in head first there. I know that to be successful you have to truly WANT it, and I need to do some more soul-searching with my food habits in order to be ready and prepared for big changes without going to the other extreme of 400-500 calories a day.

All in all, I have a long process in front of me, but I'm ready to jump in and see if I can do this without the need for surgeries. Only time will tell, but for now, for today, I'm feeling optimistic.


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    Your optimism is the first step to success. All small steps equal huge successes, you can do it! I understand the back issues too. On 9/11/2012 I had to have 4 of my vertebrae fused together. So now I have 10 titanium screws, 2 titanium rods and 4 new discs in my back. I understand the not exercising too. Since then I have been a bum and I also have just started to get my act together again. You can do it, and together we can support one another. emoticon
    1348 days ago
    Welcome! Brittney Faith is a beautiful name for a beautiful woman.
    You can do this without the extreme dieting or exercise.
    Spark people is here to support you.
    1350 days ago
    I understand! You need to lose weight to feel better, but you feel too yucky to do anything because of the weight (and subsequent health issues). I have vitamin deficiencies, too, and for in reason other than my weight and related challenges.

    You'll find good support here.

    1351 days ago

    You will succeed here! If I had only one tip to offer, it would be....learn to cook healthy foods! Doing this allows you to eat more because you are getting more nutrition and less calories.

    Some ideas to help with meals can be found here:

    Have a great weekend!
    1351 days ago

    Comment edited on: 1/10/2014 7:57:42 PM
  • JUSTME9898
    I hope you use the resources here. this has changed my life. I have changed my life style and am far healthier than I was year ago. I track my food, and exercise and I read and communicate. whatever it takes. I know it can be done. Please do not make my mistake. I am 65 years old.
    Your health, your life, your ability to enjoy your youth can all be improved. You can do this. It is not a trail or a test. You cannot fail or be "bad". If you take 2 steps forward and one step back that means you have progressed 1 step farther than you started. the next step is that much farther on the path. Do not give up, forgive yourself and when you feel down ask for help.
    You are worth it. You are important. I can hear it in your writing. You are ready for this change
    1351 days ago
  • ALICEART2010
    1351 days ago
    Good luck. This site has so many resources than can help you. emoticon
    1351 days ago
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