Friday, January 10, 2014
They say that losing weight won't change you. I swear I've seen it on several SP quizzes, especially the one that's "Are you ready to lose weight?" I can completely see where they're coming from--your weight doesn't make your personality. There are confident girls who weigh a lot, there are un-confident ladies who weigh next to nothing. I get it. But I also think they might be wrong.
Here's where I'm coming from. I feel COMPLETELY different than I did two years ago. I started at SP a year ago or so, but I say 2 years because of similar experiences. In the past, I have gone to interviews and had to fight hyperventilation, my heart feeling like it's going to burst out of my chest, etc. In addition to just the nerves of how the people I'm talking to will think about me, I honestly just felt uncomfortable not just in the clothes, but also in my skin.
Now, this is a little on the silly side, but until this week, I have NEVER gone to an interview feeling like I'm presenting my best. Not only did I meet with the admissions director at the school I'm hoping to go to this coming summer and feel comfortable, but I left the 3 hour chat confident. A direct quote was, "I rocked the fudge out of it" (except with more profanity because I live with a sailor and I can't help it okay?).
It HAS to be a good sign with then admissions director is BRAGGING ABOUT YOU to the program coordinator. In front of a room of other potential applicants. It may have made THEM uncomfortable, but it made ME do a little dance on the way to my car.
So no, losing weight doesn't change who you are, how you feel about yourself, etc. But I have to argue that it helps. Being able to wear shoes that don't rub blisters in 50 feet helps a bit. But more importantly, the confidence I've gained from making goals, keeping them, and seeing that YES I CAN... are all part of losing that weight.
The admissions director promised me personally that I could expect an admissions decision by the end of February. That means that in 7 weeks I should be 12-15 pounds lighter and making plans to go back to school!