Well, I just did my first deliberate exercising almost since I was last active on Sparkpeople. It was the 11 min cardio chair exercise.
Good news: I'm not nearly as out of shape now than I was when I initially started in 2012. My breath and heart rate quickened, but not to the point it was painful or really difficult to breath. I was able to mainly keep up with the videos pace.
Bad news: omgosh! It hurt! A lot! Not my arms, or my torso or even the muscles in my legs. It's the nerve damage. I think this is one of my MAJOR excuses to not move around too much. And a lot of the time, it's a really valid excuse. However, the not moving = keeping the excess weight = the leg never feeling better anyways. It's a vicious, never ending cycle. I've got to crawl my way out of it. (although crawling isn't an option either, really)
So, here's another question I have. Okay, not really a question, more of an observation. Yesterday was my first day back on the food tracker. I did really good as far as what I did before. I Was right in the correct section for carbs, fat, sodium and the others. Yet, I was short on my calories. (My fault for not eating breakfast I think. I just have such a hard time eating in the morning!)
Yesterday I didn't have any trouble eating healthy. Even skipped some chocolate right before bed! Today is a different story. It seems like whenever I am on a diet and actually paying attention to what I eat is when I start craving all the bad stuff!! I could really use some bacon right now. Before the journal, I could happily not even think about breakfast and not want something fatty and greasy.
Is this simply because I am actually thinking about it and it is in the front of my conscious. I am forced to think about ingesting, so I automatically think about ingesting all the yummy for your tummy- bad for you food? I think that very well may be it.
So, my goal for the next week- Sleep!! I have some sleeping pills to help, but I push back my bedtime for so long, that it isn't feasible to take them anymore. I need to set an alarm, or maybe just take them when my son goes to bed. (We do make him keep to a pretty strict bedtime schedule) I know, and have known for a while, how important sleep is to weight management, depression and pain management.
The problem before was, I didn't care about taking care of myself. This is one of the things I am trying to change. For only when you can take care of yourself, can you take care of those whom you love.