Thursday, January 09, 2014
I am still not back to my normal self yet, but per trainer/coach, it should not stop me from going to gym. He advised me that I should still show up even when in pain, and they will help me deal with it by offering alternatives, and showing me ways that might alleviate some of the pain. I had not thought about it. Yesterday's pain came bundled with me feeling like an unhappy camper, missing a few people who have passed on, and general anxiety.
I don't feel emotionally/mentally much better today but I know I am the only one who can take charge of that. I need to include time for more things that make me happy: making jewelry, hanging with friends, reading, listening to great music, checking out vintage finds. I put myself in a real sad place yesterday and cried as I lay in bed (hubby is a sound sleeper!) for who knows how long. I would guess hours.
It did not help. Today, I felt better when I woke, still somewhat in pain, but able to move around and get going. I ended up in a massive traffic jam but kept my cool the whole time.
I left work late and drove straight to the gym. I did a very slow half mile on the treadmill and called it quits. I was not feeling good, but at least I did something. It was not for the trainers, it was for me. I was there for me alone, and it helped my head clear a bit.
I am sure I will hear some backlash tomorrow from him (or her, via him) but I will take what is coming to me and just move on. I have faced that this week is just a struggle for me, and so be it. This will pass, eventually.
Hope you are all doing great, Thank you for your continued support.