Thursday, January 09, 2014
It has been a long time since I've blogged.
I would love to say, "things are so different now!" or "so much has happened!" but that's not really the case.
I've been trying different strategies with my eating, and really have been getting better about making good choices overall. Unfortunately, I seem to be much worse about "punishing" myself with intentionally poor decisions. This happens when I'm stressed or pushed waaayyy out of my comfort zone, and it's almost like, "I'm going to eat this [fill in blank] -- that will show them!" What?? How can my mind even think like that? So weird. And so hard to control.
I've cut back on artificial sweetners a bit, and sugar overall, and I find that candies and sweet things are often too sweet for me now. That's a good thing... until I eat them anyway, knowing I'm not enjoying them, just to make a point (?) that I'm upset. Still, I'm trying to focus on the positive.
I had some meetings in town today and decided to walk instead of taking the subway. As often happens in this town, I underestimated the distance terribly, and it took me almost an hour to transit between them. Fortunately, I had a flexible schedule and really just enjoyed being outside (in the bitter cold), moving. And, I didn't eat anything while I was walking! Ha ha!
I was supposed to go on a trip to Alaska on Saturday, and stay for a week. I was REALLY looking forward to it -- seeing a buddy and skiing a couple days before the work started. It got cancelled. I'm so bummed, but here's the bright side: I will not have the stress of trans-continental travel; I will not have to live out of a suitcase and eat meals on the go; I will not be tied to a hotel gym next week; I can plan my meals for the week. I'm going to make this pile of lemons into lemonade, and get my workout on.