Tuesday, January 07, 2014
My appearance has changed drastically of the past month with the second form of chemo I am doing. I'm basically bald now and have lost pretty much all of my eyelashes and most of my eyebrows. Without make-up I feel like I look like a ghost. Here's a picture of me from yesterday morning without makeup.
Today, I decided to practice putting on false eyelashes and darkening what is left of my eyebrows. After I got done with that, I put on my free wig from Vanderbilt. Here's what I looked like after I got done playing around with make-up today.
The picture doesn't really show how heavy-handed the eye makeup looks. My husband said, "It doesn't look bad." For him, that amounts to a compliment. I do need more practice, but it's okay for a first attempt...particulary if I want to be a hooker.
In a dimly lit room with my glasses on, it would look ok. All this makes me very impressed with people that can wear false eyelashes and make them look natural. I'm not sure how often I'll go to the trouble of putting on false eyelashes, but it's nice to know I have the option (particularly if I stay in dimly lit places).
In a lot of ways, I feel very fortunate to be getting chemo. Even though it's taking it's toll on my hair, chemo is giving me the best chance of getting rid of my triple negative type of breast cancer.
So what if my choices for the next few months are ghost or hooker. This second type of chemo seems to be kicking cancer to the curb. As much as it is changing my appearance on the outside, it's doing very important things in the inside. My tumor has shrunk so much that I can no longer feel it at all. That is awesome as far as I'm concerned.
I can live with looking like a ghost or a hooker for the next few months. That's no big deal in the grand scheme of things in my book.
(SparkPeople doesn't really have a hooker emoticon, this is as close as I could get)