Monday, January 06, 2014
as I walked out to get mail and wind blowing my cheeks freezing and walking difficlut ice ad snow I thought about the homeless pets, people and so glad we have power and water.
I got up every 2 hours to keep water from freezing toilet flushing and just glad I did it.
Winter in my county is brutal to say the least. I really want to eat everything sweet or salty but decided to fix a stir fry, cooked apples, and tomatoes and cucumbers in light dressing. My weigh in is thurs. First weigh in this year at tops and this starts another year. I did not do well over holidays I want to blame it on my daughters, stress, depression and just don't care attitude. It is all those things and once sweets get in my body I want them all the time. Not sure how I can get through this therapist appointment wed and I have kept a journal of my moods which holidays are so hard. When does a mother accept that her children really don't care and accept that this is how it is. I worry about my funeral my hubbys and at this point have mine planned limited at best. I really don't want there grief and crying and help ever I will stay strong but this hurts.