Sunday, January 05, 2014
These past two weeks have been a time for reflection and revelations. God has revealed a lot to me and I have been seeking him out more than usual. It has been wonderful. I have had time to get my life caught up and more organized. I have spend more time praying and in the word. I can tell and I can feel the difference. My focus lately has been on healing and dealing with what is eating me. I have learned how much I NEED God. I cannot even do my day to day tasks without Him.
I am a teacher, so I have been blessed with having the last two weeks off from school/work. I love my job and children are my passion but it has been so wonderful to be home, have time to get organized and to take care of my little monkey. I have also been able to take care of my husband more.
I have been thinking a lot about my obedience to God and what I need to work on. I have started a prayer journal and it has made a huge difference. Tonight I really am looking forward to writing in my prayer journal. I feel like it gives me focus and clarity.
Now to the real point of this post. Tonight while I was folding laundry and my monkey had gone to bed, I was praying and thinking about my weight, health and the changes that I would like to make. I realized that the foods I eat directly correlate to my obedience to God. Now I knew this before and know that our bodies are a temple, blah, blah, blah ( I don't say this out of disrespect but because that's how my mind processed it. I didn't see my eating too much fried foods and sugar as complete disobedience). Tonight I had a revelation. It isn't that these foods make me gain weight that impacts my obedience to God. It is the fact that these foods make me tired, depressed, run down, and unmotivated that makes my food choices a disobedience. It is a disobedience to God because when I feel these emotions, I am not properly taking care of my family, the blessings and gifts that He has given me in my life. WOW!!!! That is convicting for me.
As I have changed habits slowly and slowly cut out certain foods, I have felt the difference and feel so much better but that hasn't been enough. Hopefully this revelation will be enough to motivate me to make these changes.