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Why is Moderation a bad word?

Sunday, January 05, 2014

Happy New Year, SparkWorld!


Iíve had a second car accident in a year. My car choked to death on the guardrails I fed it when I was trying to brake for those kind people that neglect their signals lights, on an ice covered road. God Bless, Dipsticks.

(Whomever loves winter driving, raise your hand Ė and smack yourself silly.)

This time we can not recover financially from the accident. It was my second car that I attempted to slaughter in a year.. However, this time I was successful. My in-luvís gave me that car so that I could travel to my housekeeping job at the resort. So, our options were for me to work to own a replacement vehicle OR come out of retirement and return to being a Housewife... in the middle of Godís country. This time thereís no homeschooling. The eldest two are enjoying highschool when the eldest isnít trying to die from his second lung collapse in a year. The younger two boys and daughter are tolerating school. I think thatíll change when they have a mommy home that is not exhausted from walking 15 Ė 20 kilometers a day.

Iím so happy that I had that car accident. I walked away from it and it woke me up. I loved that job and my employers loved me. Every day I was off-shift my co-workers would say how dull things were without me to Ďcheerleadí them through their day. I loved the work I did. I spent a decade plus at home teaching or birthing and to be at a place where I could clean uninterrupted was so very beautiful. I ended up becoming a matriarch figure to many of the young ladies I worked with even though I was trying to find a separate identity. I missed being there for my own children. This past year has been a run of chaos Ė a blur - in health, home, relationships and overall existence. That job was not meant for a mom of young ones. I was expected to run like a racehorse and was rewarded like the stable hand. I skipped my Grandfatherís Funeral last week when I was too exhausted to accept his passing.

Tomorrow I give my notice.
I am no longer working just to work outside of the home. I am looking forward to savouring my life. I blinked and everything went by. Itís as though that accident popped a bubble Iíd trapped myself in and I just came up for air. I was not ready to do that lifestyle change overnight like I did. It was not the right time or job for us. I went from a maximum of 20km a week to 17kn a day. I gained weight in an athletic lifestyle because I left myself so depleted that I didnít have any energy to face myself in the healthy direction. It was like a highschooler in the NFL . Again, I took too big of a leap; in everything I need to learn moderation.

Iím back to Rinsing & Repeating...and...enjoying the things I love.
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TWYLIGHTWUNDER 4/25/2014 10:37PM

    I'm glad you did what was right for you and your family.
LOve you
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SNOWANGELDIVA 4/7/2014 2:55PM

    Thank you, Ladies.
The last three months have been insane wrestling with everything. Your support when I wanted to roll over instead of stand up and try again has been empowering. Blessings!

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NEENSTER1 1/15/2014 8:23AM

    emoticon Thank God you are ok, that's more important than some car or job. What the devil meant for evil God meant for good. Sounds like you are learning what God is teaching you out of the accident. God first then your family etc.

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_JODI404 1/5/2014 10:16PM

    Liz,

Isn't it amazing how something so terrible as a scary car accident can be such a life blessing?
I think it's more common for it to take a while to unveil itself as such... but I am really happy for you that you can make this change right now. You deserve to live and savor your life and your family.

Moderation isn't easy... but it is good stuff!

Relax and enjoy!!

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LIVINHEALTHY9 1/5/2014 7:44PM

    Glad you are ok.
Sometimes, it takes a jolt to put us where we need to be.

Blessings!



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KATHYD82 1/5/2014 1:09PM

    Wow Liz! You have been on my mind, I kept checking to see if you had posted anything lately, and wondered how you were managing with everything...job, health problems with your son, your kids, ...so glad you survived the accident ok. Moderation is a good thing...something we all need to learn in different areas in our lives. You always have a lot of wisdom to share. Sorry about the passing of your Grandfather. Here's to a New Year and new beginnings for you! emoticon Kathy

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WISHICOULDFLY 1/5/2014 12:33PM

    Liz, I am so sorry for all the troubles you have had this last year, but THANK GOD you are all right. Stay strong and listen for his guidance and he will lead you where you need to be, when you need to be there. emoticon - Connie

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BUSYGRANNY5 1/5/2014 11:43AM

    Bless you!!! It sounds like you have a lot going on....

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VEROISME 1/5/2014 10:42AM

    Sometimes things have to go wrong in order to go right. I can totally relate. emoticon

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TEXASFILLY 1/5/2014 10:05AM

    Hey dear heart~ *hugs* You've been mightily missed! So thankful you are all right~ and I'm sure sorry to hear of your Grandfather's passing, sweetie. *hugs* Sounds like '13 was a hard year all the way around. So thankful that Father protected y'all, & that He's helped you find your way back home. Isn't it amazing the wisdom we reap from our grandmothers? My beloved Mamaw always said that, too, "Moderation in all things." So glad you're back with us~ love you, gal~ *hugs* BB~ emoticon emoticon emoticon


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WINNIE1978 1/5/2014 8:43AM

    I'm glad you are ok! emoticon

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I*AM*BLESSED 1/5/2014 8:29AM

    Hey Girlfriend,

Personally, I'm glad you're back home. You've been missed here. With younger aged kiddos, you really need to be available.

Sorry about your accident but God just said it's time to close that particular door. So happy you're okay. emoticon emoticon

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SLAYINGDRAGONS 1/5/2014 7:53AM

    Epiphanies are such wonderful things! So glad for you and that you made it through to "GO".
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ADVENTURESEEKER 1/5/2014 2:13AM

    Glad to hear that you are ok. At least the snow along the edge of the guardrails didn't act like a ramp and send you careening into the river. Oh the joys of snow and winter. Not.

Change, in any form, is hard, and sometimes a pendulum has to swing both ways before it finds a happy middle ground.

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RUNNERRACHEL 1/5/2014 12:38AM

    I am so glad you're ok after your accident. It sounds like that accident was a blessing.

Your kids will be happy to have you home. I think you'll be much happier being at home. Your health, your family, you are more important!

Glad your son is ok!!
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