Saturday, January 04, 2014
So I had been on the shakes and bars for about 1.5 months when anxiety hit. Working overtime and a part-time job to pay for a wedding. Finding no time to exercise to lose weight better and worrying about what the future is in store - like finding work, moving etc.
I just couldt handle it and stopped and went to eating. Emotional eating is a huge issue for me. If I am stressed I eat carbs to calm me down. When I am down I eat sugar to give me a pick me up. Luckily my sugar cravings have gone down a little but since I have been eating carbs more to supress my anxiety it is back with a vengeance and I dont want to give them up.
Today I am going to go see my therapist about the last two weeks and hopefully get better control on myself.
I was so stressed out that I felt I was going to have a heart attack...it was that bad. Then thoughts of "it would just be easier if this was all over" crept through my mind and seriously scared me.
We will see how it goes