Friday, January 03, 2014
When I look at pictures that have been taken of me since I've been heavy (since the birth of my oldest son in 2000) they make me sad. But I'm not sad because of the way I look. No, I'm sad because I look so uncomfortable. I'm deflecting attention, looking at my kids, making a face, or just generally looking miserable. My best friend and I want to take some "before" pics to upload for the world to see. We don't want them to be depressing "Oh god, I hate myself because I'm fat" pics. We want fun pics, pics of who we are. Because when it comes down to it we are the same heavy as we are light, and everyone, including us, should see that.
We probably won't take these pictures today, maybe Sunday? Monday? Or Tuesday? The point is we want to be comfortable when we take them. We will look nice because that is something that makes us feel good. I think a good time to take them will be Thursday after our first Zumba class together! Maybe we wont do our hair and all that, maybe we'll have a ton of fun moving our butts, getting rid of some calories, and that will be the perfect time for a pic.