I Feel Like I Weigh 1,000 Pounds, And 800 Of It Is Christmas
Thursday, January 02, 2014
Not too much more to say, the title says it all.
I've decided that I'm going to go back to Overeaters Anonymous, at least one meeting a week to kind of keep my head on straight. I know I'm a compulsive overeater, I know I use food to manage my feelings and to help me escape, and I know I'm not going to stop abusing food and my body unless I deal with the underlying crap.
I'm starting this year with a new attitude -- I'm not so much focused on a goal weight or a "number" in general, I'm not focused on the results - I'm far more interested in my BEHAVIOR, since it's my behavior that is making me/keeping me fat.
For today, I'm having three meals and a snack, nothing in between, I'm avoiding white sugar and flour, I'm avoiding processed food and I'm never eating a naked carb (protein every time I eat) to manage my blood sugar.
I'm also going to move a little. Even if it's just dancing in my kitchen while cleaning or going up and down the basement stairs myself instead of making my teenage boys do all my dirty work.
One day at a time. I can do anything in one day that I don't think I can do for a lifetime. So just for today, I've got my big girl panties on and my ass-kickin' boots and I'm putting one foot in front of the other and focusing on getting between right now and bedtime without behaving in any self-destructive goal-derailing ways.