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I Feel Like I Weigh 1,000 Pounds, And 800 Of It Is Christmas

Thursday, January 02, 2014

Not too much more to say, the title says it all.

I've decided that I'm going to go back to Overeaters Anonymous, at least one meeting a week to kind of keep my head on straight. I know I'm a compulsive overeater, I know I use food to manage my feelings and to help me escape, and I know I'm not going to stop abusing food and my body unless I deal with the underlying crap.

I'm starting this year with a new attitude -- I'm not so much focused on a goal weight or a "number" in general, I'm not focused on the results - I'm far more interested in my BEHAVIOR, since it's my behavior that is making me/keeping me fat.

For today, I'm having three meals and a snack, nothing in between, I'm avoiding white sugar and flour, I'm avoiding processed food and I'm never eating a naked carb (protein every time I eat) to manage my blood sugar.

I'm also going to move a little. Even if it's just dancing in my kitchen while cleaning or going up and down the basement stairs myself instead of making my teenage boys do all my dirty work.

One day at a time. I can do anything in one day that I don't think I can do for a lifetime. So just for today, I've got my big girl panties on and my ass-kickin' boots and I'm putting one foot in front of the other and focusing on getting between right now and bedtime without behaving in any self-destructive goal-derailing ways.

Member Comments About This Blog Post:
KRYSTL719 5/16/2014 11:44PM

    Im a food addict. Cant stand when my cravings kick up. Writing my anxiety in my journal has helped me get a great routine. I hope your hanging in there. I know how depressing this situation can be first hand.

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GOINGTODOTHIS2 1/16/2014 8:45PM

    You can do this! I love the hair in the pic. You got style!

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INGBADEN 1/2/2014 4:40PM

    Gotta love the holidays, I tried this year but it still got me.

Onward today is another day. Sounds like you have a plan emoticon

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JODROX 1/2/2014 4:09PM

    I hear ya! Christmas was a doozy. Back on track (2nd day!) and feeling much better mentally about it.

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HAZELFRUIT 1/2/2014 2:11PM

I'm right there with ya, eating clean today, planning for tomorrow. Back on track!

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