Thursday, January 02, 2014
Thanks to a link in the "At goal and maintaining" team, I came across the Refuse to Regain blog ( http://www.refusetoregain.com ) last night, and something that struck me quite strongly was how the author was encouraging me to say "no". "Refuse" is not a gentle word. It's tough and it's quite stubborn, and, in my mind at least, not the most positive of words. But, here the author was pointing out that after all the hard work of losing weight (think about it: the hours exercising, deciding to go out into the winter weather to jog rather than hiding under the comfort of the duvet, choosing to cook healthier food at home rather than simply ordering a pizza after a long day at work, learning how to be nurturing to myself and others in ways that don't involve tubs of ice-cream, basically always choosing the tougher option!!) I almost owe it to myself to be stubborn about regaining weight. I can be a stubborn three year old in the face of tempting chocolates, fish and chips and that loving Aunt with the plate full of cookies walking in my direction. I've worked hard, and I don't want those cookies to be the undoing of my early morning run in the freezing cold. It's not worth it!!
I hadn't thought about maintaining weight in terms of me protecting and honouring all the hard work I put in to losing weight. Sometimes we just forget what an achievement that is - it's worth refusing the extra cookie for!!
I've really been struggling for the last few weeks. I realise now that I just haven't been feeling like all the hard work that goes into achieving my goals is worth it. Perhaps, after two years of maintaining weight it gets harder to remember all the effort that went into it in the first place. I also wonder if I've forgotten how important it is to recognise that achievement. I used to reward myself every week with a little treat (that wasn't food) for simply sticking with my new lifestyle. Perhaps I need to start doing that again. Here I am attempting a giant step in my career and learning how to live in a different country. That was a decision I made because of my healthy lifestyle changes and learning about my self-worth. It's definitely worth stubbornly refusing to gain all the weight back again!!
So, I'll continue with renewed enthusiasm to say no to the things that will add inches to my hips, not because I'm wanting to lose more weight, but because of all the weight that I've already lost.