2014- new year.. new changes..new me (January 1)
Wednesday, January 01, 2014
My blog entry title sounds cheesy, almost like everything that people are saying.. new year new me lol.. so i probably won't change completely, but this year I know i can make positive changes to my current lifestyle.
I don't want to make excuses, but life took over, stress took over, busyness with my work and school schedule, being a full time student and being employed is difficult, and although this isn't an excuse, its part of the reason I let my health go. I let myself go, I over indulged, I gained some weight, I stopped being healthy, i stopped exercising, being fit, and being who i was.
I've been depressed ever since I've gained the weight, and the feeling has not left me since.
I was so proud a few years ago when I had lost 40 pounds. i felt so amazing, and great, and i kept it off for a good year, i learned how to eat clean, exercise, and I was so healthy. It wasn't just a fad diet, but it became my healthy clean lifestyle.
Then life hit me, months went by into my first year into university, I began to travel, got a new job, and 5,10,15 lbs turned to 20-25..and i began to stop wearing my old clothes that made me feel good, my old size 28 rock and republic skinny jeans, and i began to dwell. I began to avoid socialization, avoid going to parties, love eating alone, by myself, and would notice my mood changed, I was angrier, sadder, and I pity myself.
I'm tired of making excuses, of feeling SORRY for myself. I'm better than that. We are ALL better than that. This year, is 2014. It is an important year, I'm graduating next year, and applying for law school next winter. I'm writing my LSATs this summer, and will have a busy next 6 months ahead of me.
I need to learn how to control myself, my eating habits, my discipline, my lifestyle, and be happy, and healthy. I need to let go of the negativity, of the pity, feeling sorry for myself, and i need to get back to my old self, the happy self who felt anything was possible.
3 years ago I was applying for university, I lost 30 pounds that year for my graduation and prom. i got into every university i applied for, and received scholarships for my attendance. i did it. I worked hard, and it happened, my accomplishments were worth something.
I KNOW i can do it again. I know life has made it hard, but Im not going to let little things come in my way, and I'm going to learn how to be healthy and happy again. Not letting people upset me, not letting my emotions run and take over my control and perception of whats right and wrong.
I'm done feeling sorry, and this year I will take control of my life.
My New Years Resolutions
1. Lose 30 pounds- get back to my old self-LIVE HEALTHY & BE FIT
2. Stop eating refined sugar, refined carbs, and processed foods.
3. Learn Spanish fluently
4. Save 5000$
5. Exercise more
6. Be less negative
7. Finish my LSATs and apply for law school