Tuesday, December 31, 2013
SO I wasn't planning on jumping on the whole reflecting on 2013 bandwagon...BUT I heard something today from a close friend that struck me.
At lot has happened this year that would be tough for anyone.
In January I went to Panama on a mission trip, it was an amazing experience. The down side of it was having to listen to every reason in the book from my hubby on why I shouldn't go. But I stood my ground, listening to him for 3 months beforehand and looking back I made a good choice. At the end of January, DH's dad passed away on his birthday, it was hard for all of us and still is at times.
In April is when I got injured at work. It's been a tough road since then as I missed out on a lot over the summer and even still now. Somehow I managed to lose almost 30 pounds, but in the last 3 months I have put the weight back on since my pain worsened in September and I started on pain meds. I'm not taking them much now but still have to start working on the weight again.
December I started fertility testing. I got the HSG test done which was a huge step for me. I'm nervous about the bills that will come for that but honestly you can't put a price tag on a family.
I didn't do much for any of the holidays this year with not feeling well and wanting to be there for DH and MIL for the first year without FIL here. While it was okay, it was also really hard to not see my family for the holidays.
Anyway, on to what my friend said to me today through a facebook message. Last week I messaged her on one of my rough days just updating her on how things were going since we messaged last in mid November.
I wrote to her about how I didn't want to get my hopes up about group therapy working out, and also being able to work a retreat in April. Just overall saying how I have been struggling with a lot of things lately.
Here is part of what she wrote as a response: At one point you stated "I don't want to get my hopes up" Why not get your hopes up?? You should get your hopes up!!! Our Lord wants you to get your hopes up He wants Joy and Peace that only He can bring to fill your heart!!! Begin this New Year pondering the blessings He has bestowed upon you!! We all have much to be thankful for try not to focus on the challenges. Face them and deal with them but don't be consumed by them. They will only bring you more sadness and sorrow. Trust in what plans Our Lord has for you!! If it is of Our Lord he will give you the means to embrace anything and if it is not He will still give you what you need to fight it. With Our Lord on your side you can do anything!!! You will emerge victorious!!! Please know that I truly do pray for you daily!! Stay strong my friend!!! I love you and so does Christ!!! You do not walk alone!!!
It's amazing how much I needed this message today. I know that there are blessings in my life, I'm not doubting that. I just let my struggles take over my mind too much at times. So here's to 2014, I have high hopes that I can lose weight in the coming year and make the year one to remember in a positive way!