Tuesday, December 31, 2013
Well it is new years eve and we are saying goodbye, closing out another year. I feel like New years eve makes people reflect on the past year and look towards the future of the new year. It is the time of year where everyone vows how they are going to change and they jump in full force for 7 days or so. I am really not that different then everyone else. This last day of the year had gotten me thinking and reflecting on my life and where it currently is at.
I am not happy with some parts of my life and overjoyed with others. I LOVE my son. He is the light in my world and my shinning star, guiding light on dark days. He has what has kept me going and from crawling into a hole this last year. I also LOVE my job. I have always loved what I do but not necessarily loved where I was at. I love where I am at. The kids are great and my administrative team is great and I look forward to going to work (I also enjoy the breaks). I am not happy with my habits. I have been changing and working slowly. I have had success this past year and I am NOT going to over look that (more on that later). I do not like where my marriage is. Some of that is on me and some of that is on my husband. I am also not 100% thrilled with how I manage my house and finances. Well, these are just areas for me to improve on.
This year has brought about some wounds that desperately needed to be healed. Day by day they are getting better. I know that dealing with these wounds and hurts will help me build the habits and lifestyle that I am looking for. So here are my reflections for the year.
-Extraordinary growth in my relationship with God and my faith. He has a way of breaking us down until we feel He is the only resolution...which He is. I have learned how much I need him and rely on Him. I have learned that the more trust and faith I put in him, the more I see changes happen. I CAN'T do this without God. This is a pivotal success for this year.
-I have built some habits that stuck for my eating. I have lost 26 pound this year and kept it off even when I do backslide. I am under 200lbs and that is the first time that has happened in 5 years.
-My desire to get healthy and change is different this time around. It is for different reasons and I have really been working on what's eating me. I am an emotional eater so I know that dealing with my emotions and hurts is the first step. I am learning that God comforts my hurts way better then sugar.
Areas that need improvement for 2014:
-Consistency in my eating and working out
-not eating out so much
-my self love and knowing who I am
Goals for 2014:
Health: Eat Real Foods...finally make the last jump to real foods
Exercise: begin consistently working out, even just 10 minutes a day
Spiritual: Being in the word daily and continue on my studies I have been doing
Emotional: Take care of me (and of course my son) first
Other: Make my home a haven
These are not new years resolutions, they are goals for the new year that will require steps and time. I do have a plan for each one of these goals and have thought a lot about them. These goals are not spur of the moment because of the day. They are goals that have days worth of thought and planning attached to them.
What are your goals for the new year?