Tuesday, December 31, 2013
Well, we took Missy to the vet this morning for her appointment. I had gotten a loan from my boss because I just knew in my soul what was going to happen. We told them that she hasn't really improved and could barely keep her food down. Plus she lost another 3 pounds from her last time on the scale. So the vet agreed with my diagnosis that it was time to say goodbye. We did the deed. I stayed with her every step of the way just like she always stayed with me when I needed her. I was supposed to go in to work, but I ended up telling them no. I've been crying nonstop for over 2 hours now and my head is absolutely pounding and it feels like my chest is being ripped apart. It's kinda hard at this point to believe that the pain will ever stop or that I'll survive it. I just can't believe she's gone. I keep thinking about those BEAUTIFUL brown eyes of hers. Just so full of wisdom and love. I believe that's what she was made of. Every cell was made of love. The world is definitely going to be darker without her around. It's hard to believe that a black and tan colored girl would be so full of light. She was that one light you could always count on when all others were out. She will definitely be sorely missed.