Boy what a struggle I have been having, I don't know what happened to me at Christmas, but the flood gates opened and I ate everything I shouldn't have had.. It was like I was in a trance, my mind was saying "No Elaine" all my Spark went out the window, I gave in to everything , knowing full well what I was doing, and seemed helpless to stop it! It was like an inner demon at work one part of me wanting to get control, the other part just doing what it wanted! I know, no Excuses, but this had me mystified, I was stressed, and trying to keep the pace, all the parties, family gatherings, dinners etc..I went completely amok!
Well reality set in to the tune of a 4.5 lb gain over Christmas, I have many things going on in my mind, one of them is struggling to get my control back, I will start anew, and break those habits again, I did it once, I can do it again!
What happens? Why did I let myself go completely like that, my mind was in a whirl trying to cope with this behavior. It was a melt down, frustration was crushing me!
Today I started by removing ALL temptations out of the house, I made a list of things I was going to start again, to get back on track, the most important is logging my food, and portion control, I will start there! Back to 8 glasses of water a day, and at least 30 min exercise..I was doing a bit of exercise, but not enough!
I refuse to let this lapse in behavior get me down anymore I will get back to doing what I know should be done to be a healthier, happy person!
We will open the book. Its pages are blank. We are going to put words on them ourselves. The book is called Opportunity and its first chapter is New Year's Day. ~Edith Lovejoy Pierce
Thank you Spark friends for all your support.