Monday, December 30, 2013
After the BLC 23 ended, I took a holiday SP timeout. I had made the decision to trust my instincts and embrace this pregnancy with all it brings. Partially because I was frustrated at my inability to figure out how to change my settings to not losing weight and partly because I wasn't enjoying being pregnant because I was expecting the worst.
In expecting the worst, I set myself up for sabotage. Instead of diligently continuing tracking, logging, etc... I fell into a rushed gain of inconsistent healthy eating and so-so exercising for about a month and a half. At first it was me listening to my body - nauseous, dizzy, tired, and so forth - but now I've become so accustomed to coming straight home instead of going to the gym and reaching for carbs because they satiate the nausea (can you satiate nausea?) that I find myself 20 pounds heavier and only 16 weeks pregnant.
To exacerbate my own disappointment, the nurse looked at me (and the scale) in disbelief repeatedly this evening. I had a gut feeling it was 20 pounds this morning - I'm not sure why - and maybe I needed it. I know this isn't a complete weight gain only thing, but a good portion of that weight is emotional, free-range eating that isn't justifiable pregnant or otherwise.
So I'm returning to SP and its tools to help monitor this next month and see if I can gain a better perspective. I've been working out at home but obviously need to move this to the gym sometimes to get a better and less distracting workout. It's time to re-evaluate my perspective and take this new experience in strides.