Back Where I Started... :(
Monday, December 30, 2013
So... it's been 3 yrs since I joined SP, and quite awhile since I wrote a blog. When I joined, I weighed 169 lbs. I'm 5'3" and every pound definitely shows. I lost 30 lbs and felt SO good. But now I've gained nearly all of it back and I don't feel healthy anymore. I've felt very 'blah' and down on myself this past year. I've had to buy larger clothes again and even my 'oversize' tops are snug across my belly. I've been neglectful toward SP and my SP friends. I think I was ashamed that my weight wasn't going down anymore, it was going UP, and I didn't want anyone on here to know.
I want to blame it on several stressful factors including my mom's Alzheimers and having to put her in a nursing home, missing my son's big church wedding due to being iced in at the Dallas airport, my doctor always telling me I need to lose weight which makes me feel like the weight I do lose doesn't count for much, etc. sigh... But I suspect it's because I got lazy, I love food, and I love to eat.
What it comes down to is this - yesterday I started over. I hope to get back on track and also spend more time on SP than I have in a long time. I must say I feel so much better by writing this blog and 'getting it out there'. Have a great week my SP friends!