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Got on the scale for the first time in months...

Sunday, December 29, 2013

How many times have you said to yourself, "This time will be different. I will be successful."? I can't even tell you how many times I have. When I had my son (9 years ago), when I was getting married (5 years ago), when my son started school and then the second one came along, when I was turning 30, then when I started nursing school, now, well, I'm not saying it. I just can't. I have been on a long SP break which I feel now was a mistake. Because I lost not weight, but motivation.

This is a pretty common thing at the the beginning of a fresh year, people wanting to change, to lose weight, to quit the unhealthy thing holding them back. I don't want to be lumped in with the unsuccessful resolution makers. I want to succeed so badly. I am sick and tired (literally) of being in pain, always pissed off, and never having any energy to do what I want to. I just was out of breath unloading the dishwasher! I used to run five miles everyday and eat healthy and drink only water. Where did I go?! How do I keep up this motivation? I can make a million excuses but the mirror doesn't lie.

So what do I do? I must carve out time for the gym and somehow budget in healthier alternatives. I have very little support. My husband is amazing but thinks there is nothing at all wrong with me. He knows I love chocolates and Starbucks and indulges that. How do I go from only eating sugary carbs to being a health monster? Grrr!

I wish I could slap myself and wake up for good. I hope and pray I can make healthier choices especially since I am a nurse and should set an example but I need help. Lots of it.

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    First, I want to welcome you back to Spark People. This is the place to come for motivation. I use to think I was alone and when I came here, I quickly learned that is ar from the case. You don't have to be a health monster, just remember to do all things in moderation and work in those freggies anyway that you can. I have lots of faith in you and either myself or others, are always here for you. emoticon emoticon emoticon
    1542 days ago
  • DS9KIE
    first off your not alone..I had to chuckle at your dishwasher, cause I just had that feeling with the laundry (and the clean clothes are still sitting on top of the dryer unfolded)

    Instead of looking at all the stuff you shouldn't eat, look at all the food you can eat like all the fruits and veggies in the produce and start off by eating fruits and veggies at each meal know matter what your eating.

    so just come by my page when you need some support.
    1542 days ago
    I hear the discouragement and hopelessness in your post. I am feeling the same way. But, we just have to keep trying until we succeed. Cause the alternatives are very unpleasant. We plainly can't get up by beating ourselves down, so we have to get up the inspiration to succeed by building ourselves up. It is hard enough to get to a healthy weight; it is even harder if we are feeling bad about ourselves.
    1542 days ago
    Aloha ~ a lot of us have started over and over and none of our past efforts are total failures - if we think about we are learning from all those times! We are learning what doesn't work if nothing else. Now it's time to shoot for what does work!

    Small changes daily can do that. And you can still have chocolate (maybe not the kind you like - but dark-good-for-you chocolate! ha!). And as far as husbands go - if you have one that is supportive at all he'll support you in a healthy habit/way if he can be made aware.

    Rely on your teams to support you and your spark friends - please feel free to add me as a friend and contact me anytime for an extra boost of support. I'm happy you joined the ETL team ... I hope we both have much success this year and all our other sparkpeople! ~dj
    1542 days ago
    All those times you tried and didn't get there were important too. They were practice to get it right. Believe in yourself. How did your boards go? Are you able to check that off your list? Does this give yiu a bit more time for your health goals?
    Make small goals and small steps to get there. Your children are young. The time is now. You can do it. I bet they will enjoy the new food creations too. Fruit & veggie smooths. Humus & fresh veggies. Veggie pizza. Good for Mom. Good for kids. Dear hubby will come around too. Yes chocolate & Starbucks can be my Achilles too. Ask your husband to save his money for your new wardrobe. Come February 1 st you will be so proud of yourself that your still here & lost a few lbs. Hugs.
    1542 days ago

    Comment edited on: 12/29/2013 8:04:12 PM
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