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Buying clothes for my smaller self

Saturday, December 28, 2013

I was out today and I've gotten used to being able to buy things in a size large. Today I am not fitting into anything large unless it's full of stretchiness. It's amazing what 10 pounds will do.

With all the stuff that went on lately I've ballooned back up past 190. I decided to get shapewear, but didn't bother trying it on at the store. That was mistake #1.

When I got home, I tried to get it on, but it wouldn't pass my thighs. I guess I should have learned from the last person who sold me shapewear and bought the next size up from my regular clothes.

I'm not going to return it, I know I'll be back into that size soon enough and will need a shaper for that size when I get back to it. It's a bummer that I'll have to wait at least 15 pounds for me to be able to sausage myself back into it.

It's just too bad that I am so used to purchasing a smaller size that I just don't fit into right anymore. I'm feeling bigger and even had to put my knee brace back on to keep it in line. It's probably because I haven't been as active lately. I can physically see my middle creeping out again and my thighs are widening. I even noticed my wrists looking a little bloated. Who knew so much could happen from so few pounds?

With the nice weather today, I think I'll go out and enjoy this MN heat wave (it's in the mid 40's today!) before the deep freeze comes back tomorrow (-50 wind chills predicted, brr!).

I know that as soon as I get my regular schedule back next week, I'll be able to go right back to the habits I gained before that were bringing me to a smaller, fitter, healthier self.

I'm keeping that shapewear simply because that's a new goal, to fit into something that will make my lumps look good and smooth when I'm the right size for my body. I thought I would be able to squeeze into it, but knowing that I can't today doesn't mean I'll never fit into it.
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  • TANYA602
    I'm sending positive thoughts and hugs your way. You will lose the weight and you will get back to those smaller sizes. You know what to do and as you set your goals you will meet them. What I have loved about you all along is that you are not a quitter - you fight hard and you come up with your head held high.
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    backpedaling is hard but it's nothing you can't overcome!
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  • MISSG180
    This year has been hard and I only have one pair of jeans I can wear. But we're gonna get back on track!
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  • SHERYLP461
    Yea for you!
    1544 days ago
    Looks like both of us have the same goal. Getting back to where we were not all that long ago. For me, it's been almost a year. I was around 195 and got back up to 216. It's going back down again. I'm setting indoor goals as I really hate the negative numbers we have here in Idaho. I can see in you what I go through. You are better at keeping your goals than I am but I feel I understand when life flips you upside down and you have to start over again. Hope your son is making gains. I'm not sure what's harder... going through what he has gone through or having to watch him do it. After watching both dds go through allergies both food and asthma, watching my autistic son go through all kinds of stuff when he was younger or my husband when he recently shattered his elbow so far from home. I am fortunate to be pretty healthy. Few allergies that can be easily dealt with. My only broken bones are ones that aren't essential and many years ago. You are a great Mom and I think your kids are lucky to have you. You know what's important and now that your son is on the mend you are getting back to your old self. Good for you. I will look to you for inspiration. I know if you can do it so can I. If you fall again we as a group will hold you up in our thoughts and prayers until you're ready to take of you again. Have a wonderful New Year.
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  • KAREN608
    Glad you are keeping the shapewear and making plans to get into it!
    1544 days ago
    yes you have a goal to work for, and I really need to see a goal, otherwise I k tend to sluff off, go for it,
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